goodbye 2010

so i havent posted in a while! ha a while being 2 days. sooo. yesterday was the shiz. i went to the mall with my brother and my bestie landen. we spent 300 dollars on clothes. i picked out all of landens stuff and it was awesome. then, i went to a party. oh my. it was a reunion of my jr, high. and.. well.. it just reminded me of how much jr, high sucked. there were two girls that everyone payed attention too, and it was just like old times, where everyone ignored me. fun? sure... popularity is so stupid. its one of those things that no one will ever be able to figure out. like, what makes popular kids popular? one day everyone just wakes up and thinks : she will be the new coolest girl in school. i dont get it. but whatever. I'd rather be a nice, less popular girl, than a mean popular girl. not to say the popular kids are mean. its just a stereotype.

 otay lets see. today is new years eve!! i cant believe that 2010 is already over! my goodness, there was so many up and downs this year. i was reading my journal last night, and it was cool remembering everything that happened this year. all of the sadness at the beginning of the year (why jr. high sucked), and the healthy rebuilding of my confidence during the summer (thank you to my three friends in the summer... you know who you are:) the happiness of the first two months of high school, and then my world falling apart in october. in a way, i am so glad that my best friend left. its made me a lot closer to my parents. it has made me want to be as oppisite as her as i can, which has made me a much nicer person. its also introduced me to the wonderful friends i have today (nikki, landen, casey, sam, haley, and many more). it has also made me realize how poisonious our relationship was to begin with. and although i have alot less friends now, and some people actually hate me, i am soooooo grateful for the relationships that have blossomed from the fall out.  but, maybe the best reason i am glad this whole thing happened, is because its increased my self worth. ive always had self esteem issues (who hasnt) and the fact that so many people have stood beside me in my darkest moments have made me see how important i am to them. again, let me just say how grateful i am for all of you, and lets hope 2011 brings happiness instead of sorrow. bye(:

p.s. my best friend nikki has a blog! read :

http://niknak-pattywak.blogspot.com/

FOR NARNIA!!!!!!!!!!

SO. woah caps lock. I watched 5 movied today.
* Inception * oh baby was that a good movie. it was thrilling, but also made me think. i thought it was funny how the car falling into the water was like half the movie. it might be one of the best movies i have seen. watch it.


*  Leap Year  * this movie was okay. it was waayyy cheesy. a typical love story set in ireland. the two people meet each other and fall in "love", but she is getting married. then she leaves her fiance, and goes back to him. then they get married. it makes no sense to me. they just met each other and then they get married. does anyone remember how romeo and juliet ends? yeah. not good


* Letters to Juliet * oh. my. gosh. cutest love movie ever!!! i cried at the end! i dont know why, but the scene where she thinks that he is with Penelope and how she traveled all this way to get him, and how she cant have him anymore hit me really hard. i love that movie (:


* The Voyage of the Dawn Treader * wow this was a great movie. i didnt really want to see it, because i was super tired, but i am glad i did. the storyline was great - although it did veer off the original book a bit - the effects were awesome, and the acting was realistic. at the end of the movie, the charecters make it to "aslans country", and are deciding whether they should go in or not. in my mind, the country represents heaven. they could go in, but they could never come back. after the mouse reepicheep goes in, everyone else decides to stay out. lucy and edmund ask aslan if they will ever come back to narnia.


"Dearest," said Aslan very gently, "you and your brother will never come back to Narnia."
"Oh, Aslan!!" said Edmund and Lucy both together in despairing voices.
"You are too old, children," said Aslan, "and you must begin to come close to your own world now."
"It isn't Narnia, you know," sobbed Lucy. "It's you. We shan't meet you there. And how can we live, never meeting you?"
"But you shall meet me, dear one," said Aslan.
"Are — are you there too, Sir?" said Edmund."I am," said Aslan. "But there I have another name. You must learn to know me by that name. This was the very reason why you were brought to Narnia, that by knowing me here for a little, you may know me better there."


i love it!


* Tourist * so this movie was really confusing at first, but it is really, really good at the end. im not gunna give anything away though (:


so yep, thats it with the movie post.


byyyeeee(:

all. night. long

so me and nikki hung out yesterday! obviously! she wrote on here! well, we pulled an all nighter(: 
our agenda :
*9 - 10 pm. chilling on the couch with a billion little children running around - singing for them!
*10 - 11 pm. visiting dahlin bretzing. he got surgery on his shoulder today, to get the muscle sewn back onto his bone. His mom told us this story : when dahlin came out of the anesthetic, he was so mad. he was kicking and screaming, and the nurse told me to hold his legs down. so i reach over to get to his legs, and he smacks me in the face! so I am all ow! and the nurse says: are you okay? then dahlin screams : ITS ALWAYS ABOUT MY MOM ISN'T IT?!. hah funniest story ever!!
*11 - 12 pm. me and nikki wanted sugar so that we would stay up, so we were gunna go to holiday to get slushies, but holiday was closed, so then we were gunna go to 7 - 11, but we couldnt find one. so we went on this adventure, trying to find a gas station. we finally found a maverick though(: so we got icees, powerade, and these little balls of chocolate energy stuff.
*12 - 1 am. we played the mormon version of scene it with nikkis little siblings, then they went to bed. we looked up how to pull an all nighter on google. this website http://www.wikihow.com/Pull-an-All-Nighter was very helpful. we drank ice water, and talked to landen schaelling about random stuff on facebook, and then we streched. it woke us up alot actually. nikki also introduced me to this song : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tfwKBaAbXtY&NR=1 and i cant stop listening to it

*1 - 2 am. we got bored of talking to landen, so we started listening to music. danced to this : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0J3vgcE5i2o. then learned how to do this : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sLGLum5SyKQ. then learned a cheer dance to this : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iP6XpLQM2Cs. then just learned basic cheer moves

*2 - 3 am. we were tired and sweaty, so we took a break. for some reason, nikki wanted to read the dictionary, and she found a funny word for each letter of the alphabet. the best one was "upstairs : something that is up the stairs". really? does webster think we are idiots? while she dictionized, i drew pictures. then i went to the bathroom, and got distracted because i found a yearbook, and when i came up, nikki was almost alseep. sooo i made her eat a power ball thingy (which she thought were the most discusting things ever, and i atually liked them), and that woke her up!

*3 - 5 am. talking about our lives. about the guys we've liked. about friendships that have been destroyed. about how 9th grade was aweful. basically, we talked about everything. i told her things i've never told anyone. and i am so glad i did. it brought us closer together(: aaaand i almost cried like 6 times. it was awesome.

*5 - 6 am. talking can only keep you satisfied for so long. we got hungry! nikki ate ravioli, and i ate olives. we are healthy? we went back to her room, and we were so out of it. nikki sang me a song on the ukelele about how great i am. it was awesome. then we were laying there, almost crashing, and this was our conversation "nikki: i love my pumpkin pencils. me: me too. nikki: i got them at a hillary duff concert. me: i liked them. nikki: they were so yummy." we were so out of it. but we didnt crash! i woke us up! we looked at stuff on facebook. we looked at my.... acquaintance jade's pictures. and let me just say. she is a great photographer. i liked her pictures(:

*6 - 7 am. we wanted to watch the sunrise, and so we sat outside in the freezing cold for like 20 minutes, only to realize that the sun doesnt rise for another hour. we are smart. sadly, nikki's mom made us go to sleep. ahh. we coulda stayed up. but oh well. it was the greatest "sleep"over ever!

oh. and. be nice and represent. just like the staff at Nordstroms.

On the concept of blog robbing.

Yes, this is Nikki. Yes, I have stolen her blog to post a post.
So pretty much haley is the best ever :) She's one of the nicest people I know! And I would probably die without her. True story. Today we went to the mall and we walked around.. exciting? yes! And now haley is on the moon walker shoes.. she's just jumping around my room while I'm writing her blog. This is what best friends do:) Eat eachothers foods and play with eachothers stuff.
So now on the concept of songs.. haley always posts songs so i'm thinking I should do the same.
"Satellite" by Guster is a way good song! same with "Ache" by James Carrington. I'm trying to learn ache on the guitar and haley will probably sing.. cause she's the one who's capable of singing. (me on the other hand is tone deaf and very pitchy)
Okay last concept to write about, people who are dumb with other peoples blogs and profiles. I mean if you have a problem with someones profile don't go on it. Or blog.. no one really has the right to comment on what other people post I think so at least.

Oh ya! Me and haley saw my boyfriends little brothers x girlfriend (that was probably confusing) but when we say her we yelled, "Oh ya... GARRETT TAYLOR! what a babe!" haha it was way funny and it made my day:) Also me and haley were almost attacked by a dog at my little sisters' friends house.. it was inside but it reminded me of a dog I once had named cougar.
Cougar was a cute puppy... until we had him for a week. Then he was the devil. TWO YEARS were wasted trying to clean his droppings, stopping his biting habits, trainers, barking, and many other stressful stuff to do. He was the worst dog ever. I hope I never have to get a dog.. but when I get married my husband will probably make me. LAME. But ya.. dogs are the worst.. unless they are obedient and quiet. Soooo now I have nothing to say... except today was pretty awesome:)
LOVE NIKKI
p.s. word of advice for the day: don't eat sandwhiches or salads from weird boutiques. The end.

p.p.s. Me and Haley are famous now.. check out the billboard.... (The Real End now)
                                                                                              

song, songs and more songs!

okay. so here it is. my new song!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!(:

From: me

dear bicycle boy, I need to tell you

what I didn't say before

you, you didn't answer

when I came up to your door

my heart is beating solely

for the purpose of your eyes

and you don't know what you've done to me

it's better than butterflies

oh meet me in the rain

light up this town again

and baby, believe me

our hands fit together perfectly

they say every rose has it's thorn

but i can't find one on you

and this might sound cliche, but

we're making footprints on the moon

I'm knocking, do you hear me?

don't leave me at your door

don't leave me in the thunder

you're creating for this storm

oh meet me in the rain

light up this town again

and baby, believe me

our hands fit together perfectly

now here comes the hard part

boy what do you say?

I told you that I love you

now meet me in the rain

I couldn't say it better

so I'm writing you this letter

let's kiss away this mind frame



oh, will you meet me in the rain?

we can light up this town again

I will show you, I will make you see

how we'll fit perfectly

ohhh, baby, please

from : me

okay. so its really long, and really cheesy. but i like it. i wrote it about someone(: obviously.  so the second song: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U0CGsw6h60k

i can not stop listening to this. maybe because i can't stop thinking. about... well its a secret. shhh(:

aight. so third song : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cmb8_KsrNSQ 

although the music video is really stupid, this song PERFECTLY describes my situation now with... she who must not be named. this one works too : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8v_4O44sfjM

and this one : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SR6iYWJxHqs

man. i am just full of music today. well i am off to write two more songs(: peace!

christmas makes me wanna celebrate!!

oh my heck. this was the greatest christmas ever! my mother got me amazing presents!!
my headphones make me want to listen to music forever
my boots make me feel like laura croft
my leather jacket makes me want to be a spy
my corkboard makes me want to have a schedule
my clothes make me want to not be naked
my jewerly makes me feel fancy
my yellow purse makes me want to carry stuff around
and my new justin bieber poster makes me wanna be his girlfriend(:
pretty much the best christmas ever. i already said that. but : repetion makes it important (name that quote!)

thats all!

oh wait.

girls are so retarded. quit choosing boys over your friends.

now thats it.

BYYEEE

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IKNU5xgvua0

In the mood

So, I haven't really been in the mood to post anything since Wednesdays blow up. And now I have to be very careful what i DO post on here, in case anyone gets offended. I wasn't aware that a blog could be such a powerful weapon.
.anyways.
Lately I've been watching surface, which is an old t.v show (well not old, more like 2005) about sea monsters made by the government. It got canceled after 15 episodes, because there was no more funding, but oh my heck, it is one of the best shows I have ever watched. It's mysterious, and intense, and mmmmmm I just love it. Seriously. Watch it.

I think that's about all I wanna say today. It's christmas eve. And yesterday was christmas Adam (because it came before eve). And christmas is tomorrow. I am super excited, because I have no idea what i am getting! I am letting my mom do all the shopping and I haven't picked out anything. Yay this will be the best Christmas ever(:

cutest song ever!

sorry i just had to post this! this song means alot to me, and now it means alot to my bestest friend ever nikki! listen(:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GXxbC0B_74s

hypocrisy at its finest

I bet you think you're cool. I bet you think this is the funniest thing ever. But you know what? its not. because you are hurting people, and you dont even care do you? this is all just a big game to you. lets just insult her, make her feel bad, when she has done nothing but been a good friend to you. do you not understand that you are hurting people?

In case you couldnt tell. Im not talking about some girl. this is me we are talking about here. why cant i find ANYone who will stay with me through everything? i trusted you with my life, and you just turned around and stabbed me in the back. what did i do to deserve this? i can answer that for you. nothing. you might try to blame this whole thing on me. but you know, deep down, that none of this is my fault. the fact that you have a pack of girls out to get me, and trying to tear me down just shows me how much you know that i did not do anything. you know. and now you want him too? you pulled everyone away from me, because of something HE did. and i gave you the one person who could truely pull me through this disaster, because i still cant do anything to hurt you. after everything you have done to me. after the rumors, the insults, the abandonment. i still can not hurt you. and you dont understand that. you think that your life isnt fair. you think that everything happens to you. so why not make it happen to me too? why not put me through everything you can possibly think of, and then make it look like its all my fault? honestly honey. what have i done to you? i told you the truth, you chose to deny it. i told him what happened, you chose to make it my fault. i let you take your hurt out on me, you make it look like i am a raging jealous freak. i try to get through your torture, you make it worse. i give you him - the one person who was making my life okay, you make it look like i broke his heart. i am trying to make this better, you want to make it worse. i could tell everyone everything you are doing, and i could stop you. but i dont want to give you a reason to hate me anymore than you do. why? because i still care. i HATE it. i wish i could be as ruthless and vicious as you, but i just cant. i know how it feels to be the girl, sitting at home, wishing i was her, and i dont want to put you through that. as much as you deserve it. i can not do it. does this make me weak? no. it makes me above this. above your little games. i honestly dont know why i put up with you for so long. how could i not know how poisonous our relationship was from the very first boy? im sorry. im so so sorry it had to turn out this way. i try to laugh it off. but im often the most weak when i seem the most happy. and no one can see it.
i am done. its in her hands now.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SR6iYWJxHqs

getting naked at walmart!!!

ha. that title caught your attention didnt it? well i really did get naked at walmart. the drink of course! after randomly seeing corbin, truckie, julia and kate there! well.. i didnt do much today.... so i dont have much to talk about.. but nikki did randomly call me and said a bunch of stuff that i didnt really understand. all i heard was : "call you?" "adam" "call you later!"..... i am so confused!  hopefully she will call me later, because its like a big mystery right now! soo yeah... peace(:

what made my day: getting naked at walmart
why: so i can make it my facebook status and freak people out!

p.s. here is something we got at our ward christmas party! :

A Candy Makers Witness

a candy maker in Indiana wanted to make a candy that would be a winess of his faith, so he made the Christmas Candy Cane. he incorporated several symbols of the birht, ministry, and death of Jesus Christ. He began with a stick of pure white hard candy. white to symbolize the Virgin Birth and sinless nature of Jesus; and hard to symbolize the Solid Rock, the foundation of the Church, and the firmness of the promises of God. The candy maker made the candy in the form of a "J" to represent the precious name of Jesue, who came to earth as the Savior of all mankind. it could aslo represent the staff of the Good Shepherd with which He reaches down into the dirches of the world to lift out the fallen lambs, who, like all sheep, have gone astray. Thinking that the candy was somewhat plain, the candy maker stained it with several small red stripes representing the stripes Jesus recieved when He  was beaten before His Crucifixion; the stripes that the Bible says we are healed by. the large red stripe is for the blood shed by Christ on the cross so that mankind would have the promise of eternal life. As time passed, the candy became known simply as a candy cane. it is now a standard decoration we see at Christmas time, but not nearly carrying the meaning that was orignally intended. but the meaning is still there to those who have "eyes to see". perhaps this story of the origin of the candy cane will help you to witness the wonder of God's Gift at this blessed time of the year
                       - author unknown

P.S.S. okay so totally unrelated to the story.. buuutt listen!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tZWr8X2OziU

a BILLION and a half things!

oh my goodness! sooo many things have happened. soo this is gunna be a long post. hopefully(:

FIRST of all. I went to kneaders for breakfast with Nikki, Damon, Dahlin, and Tohi for Tohi's 16th birthday yesterday! its delish. go eat there. mmm its pretty exciting being sixteen. We can finally date now! well not me, since I will be 16 in 4 months and two days. its not like I am counting down or anything. uhhmm lets see. After breakfast me and Nikki and Damon went to the mall. I bought a super awesome shawl that I transformed into a scarf.

Fareaking awesome right? I realize that its a cliche, in the mirror picture, but my other ones failed. dont judge

anyway. I also bought my mommy a christmas present. but that is not going to be revealed. after the mall, we watched the BYU - UTEP (I think?) and BYU won 52 - 24 (again, i think). Of course byu won. we are awesome! ohhkay, so I went home and then went to a ward christmas party. The tables were covered with white paper, and crayons for us to color with. The funny thing is, the teenagers colored more than the kids did. The party was pimpin, as far as church parties can be. theennn me and a BUNCH of people went to see RED at some random movie theater in American Fork. while normal teenagers would be blasting rap music while speeding down the freeway, we were blasting christmas music and reading scriputres in the car while riding home. Ha i just love being mormon(:  as soon as i got home though, it was chaos. someone flooded our toilet, and my parents had been vacuuming up water the whole time i was gone. that was an awkward thing to walk in on. I stayed up till 2 in the mornin, and woke up at 11:30. whoops. there goes 9 o clock church! soo Ive been doing pretty much nothing today since I was grounded. Why you ask? because my brother was on bathroom this week, and HE didnt clean it. uh... shouldnt that make HIM grounded? not me? nope. It's my fault he didnt do it because I didnt tell on him for not doing it...... Back to the whole double standards idea. it kinda sucks being the only girl in my whole house ya know? well besides my mom, but shes a woman.

okay. so i am done now.

p.s. listen:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SsD-vL1lxTo

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RHQo4s1-lQI

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=haKvSEX2PtI

I love these songs with a passion(:

Short post...... Don't be mad

Okay, so another short post. Don't judge. Its only because I litterly did nothing today. Like seriously.I walked home from school in the 30 degree weather, without a coat. But i did see jhulien on my way home, so that was a plus. I watched my recorded snl (the kissing relatives sketch was super awkward) and then scott pilgrim vs the world. That was a great movie, in our weird, nerdy 2010 kinda way. Oh! I forgot! I sang my song rockstar at school(: it was only for like 10 people, and in the hallway, but still. Ohkay so back to tonight, it snowed!!! Yaaaayyyy. It's finally winter! Actually, it's technically still fall, but shhhhh. Alright, so i am done.....for now(:

P.s. My math teacher gave us homework. Who does that?

What made my day: the snow!
Why: so i can make snow slushies with pomegranate 7-up

choir and draaaaaama!!

oh my goodness! today was ahmazing!! Although I did have to be at school at 7 for a macbeth test prep class. WEEE fun. Extended lunch was today. And since Nikki decided to ditch me (just kidding. i love you) I went to lunch with my beautiful mother. We went to XENOX (I think?) for boxes, and then to sensuous sandwiches. Mmmm that was good. I drank a lot of soda (I know, I'm a bad girl), and had to pee sooo freaking bad during choir. But being the teen that I am,  I somehow forgot to go before I went to class. Let's just say, it was not a fun class period. after school, I stole Riley's (aka Jesse's) glasses, and wore them. Then I had a huuuuge headache from wearing them. Stupid me(: I walked home by myself in the cold without a coat. Fun? then I cleaned the kitchen... even better. BUUT then came the great part. The Mountain View choir concert!!! OH my gosh it was great! Mostly because SOMEONE was there(: shhhh its a secret. The drama came after the concert. Lets just say, things were repeated by little children, and a bird was there. That was supposed to be confusing. SOO I'm off to do NO homework. yes. I have absolutely zero homework!! night(:

What made my day: mv choirs
Why: because we were hekka good!

Another short post......(:

So i realize that I have been a little flaky, and I haven't given anyone much to read about (mainly nikki. I know you are reading this). Buuuut bad news. Another short post is coming your way! So today. I went to ANOTHER basketball game. I am really stating to love basketball, now that I actually know what is going on. Our sophomore team lost, in double overtime. It was super intense. But oh well. They did great(: after the games, I went to young womens for our christmas party! We played the finger game, where you all sit in a circle and tell something about yourself, or something you have done. All the people who have done that thing keep their fingers up, and if you haven't then you put one down. The best ones:
1. a girl told us that there is incest in her family
2. Someone has a belly button that is 3 inches deep
3. Someone got caught skinny dipping at a boy scout camp
Pretty much, our ward is amazing. I also found out that my Spanish slash history teacher is in my stake. Crazy! Well. I am gunna go memorize some macbeth for my test tomorrow. Night world(:
P.s. You are SUCH a hypocrite. Story will come later.

What made my day: when the jordan kid missed his 1 point foul shot (I hope you know what I am talking about, because I don't know what they are called.
Why: because me and nikki did the whole OOOOOOOOHHH thing and made him miss. It was cool because we were the only ones that did it

P.s.s.

http://www.dailymotion.com/video/xayb66_taylor-swift-jump-then-fall-new-son_music

Listen to it(:

Bye!!

SHORT POST!!

OKAY. sooo basketball games were today! Sophmore one both of thiers! nice job boys(: JV lost, but Varsity won!!! 48 - 37 I think. I spent the first three games with Nikki (of course) and the last one with Nikkis family! because I am a loser and have no friends... (: soo yeah that is pretty much it for the day!!!

p.s. here is a quote I copied in seminary: "In the very act of transgression, some plan to repent. They mock the gift of mercy that true repentance allows."

Deep. I know!

what made my day: nikki buying me a slushy
why: because I was FREAKING sad and it made me feel better!!

OH! double p.s! ME AND NIKKI GOT IN A WRECK TODAY!! not a real one. she just backed into a guy getting gas. But he was freaking pissed! this 70 year old mad swore and everything!! it was great fun(:

Bye furr now!

Christmas birthdays(:

 soo I forgot to post yesterday!! whoops(: So today was my besties Tori Jones birthday!! shes finally 15!! Tori if you ever see this HAPPY FREAKING BIRTHDAY!!!(:

I made her cookies(: And me, haley lopp, rachel, and megan chalked her driveway!! It was great(: Mine was definatly the best! Buuut yeah tori happy birthday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! woah. Happy much?

P.s. this is my horrible first attempt at making cookies. Its not a smart idea to try and do your honors history project thats due tomorrow, and bake at the same time.

p.s.s. Me and my brother kaleb were bored, so we took pictures! this was the only good one. he also recorded me singing "Rockstar". (lyrics are in an earlier post). The video will be on here as soon as I can get it to work!

Okay. SO my family wrote letters to santa! It was great fun.

Mine said::

Dear Santa.

Hello. I want a pont. Put Jake on the naughty list. I want a straight A report card. Bring Nathan some toothpaste. You're only jolly because you know where all the bad girls live right? Bring my dad some clothes, its akward when he's naked. Make Jake stop being annoying. Please don't bring back my braces. Don't bring me a jelly fish, unless its in a bowl. Make Nathan stop singing jellyfish. Bring me a hampster. Also the new Justin Bieber album.

Thanx.

LOVE

Haley(:

p.s. if you don't know what jelly fish means......

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iubJ-XSL9go

and heres another one. just fur fun

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Mj00ii1BLV8&feature=channel

aight. Thats it for now. family chirstmas pictures comin sooooon(:

"I made this for you" - Julian Smith

So much to doooooo

Okay. So I realize that it is like one in the morning, and I still have to read my scriptures and write in my journal, but I have to post about tonight!(:
We had a black light Dance at my school tonight. It was so so so so great! You know that its great when you come back soaked in sweat! I partied with landen and sam. The music was loud, the lights were amazing, and we had a mosh pit(:. The dance was amazing, let me tell you. But what I really wanted to talk about was the girls. Awkward I know, but some of them were super uhmmm scandalous. Do they not realize that all it does is make them look desperate? Like there was this one girl who was humping the ground, in a circle of guys. I don't understand why you would just throw yourself at people like that. There was this other girl who was trying to like grind or something with the guy that she likes that doesn't Like her back. Does she not realize how desperate she looked? The guy was pushing her away, but she just kept coming back. It was actually pretty entertaining to watch. I don't know, I kinda feel bad for the girl, but she was being an idiot. Okay so enough about the dance. I went to burger supreme today for diner, and my brother called me fat. Since when is 120 pounds fat? But I guess I will follow his advice, and stop eating junk. I wish it were cross country season again. I guess i will go to bed now.

What made my day: Sam jolley
Why: ha he is a great dancer!

Night world(:

Book Review!

Todays topic is books! I know. I am kind of a book nerd. The book that I am currently reading is "Nation" by Terry Pratchet. It is about an island in the Pacific that is devestated by a tsunami, and the last boy who survives finds a white girl that he has to survive with. I really really like this book, but I have only read half of it. The last time I tried to read it, I was in california on the beach. I was reading a book about a tsunami when a huge (well huge enough) wave came and destroyed my book. I had to throw it away in the trash at Laguna Beach. Ironic? yes. Nation dives into Pacific Islanders culture, and it is very interesting to read about thier different beliefs in God. The very first part of the book tells the story of the creation of Earth:
               
"  Imo set out one day to catch some fish, but there was no sea. There was nothing but Imo. So he spat in his hands and rubbed them together and made a ball of sea. After that he made some fish, but they were stupid and lazy. So he took the souls of some dolphins, who at least had learned to speak, and mixed them with clay and rubbed them into his hands and changed their shape and they became people. They were clever but they could not swim all day, so Imo dug some more clay and rubbed it in his hands and baked it in the fire of his fishing camp, and that was how the land was made.
   Soon the people filled all the lands and were hungry, so Imo took some of the night and rubbed it in his hands and made Locaha, the god of death.
    Still Imo was not satisfied, and he said: I have been like a child playing in the sand. This is a flawed world. I had no plan. Things are wrong. I will rub it in my hands and make a better one.
    But Locaha said: The mud is set. People will die
    Imo was angry and said: Who are you to question me?
    And Locaha said: I am a part of you, as are all things. So I say to you, give me the mortal world, and go and make your better one. I will rule here fairly. When a human dies, I will send them to be a dolphin until it is time for them to be born again. But when I find a creature who has striven, who has become more than the mud from which they were made, who has glorified this mean world by being a part of it, then I will open a door for them into your perfect world, and they will no longer be creations of time, for they will wear stars.
     Imo thought this was a good idea, because it was his own creation, and went off to make his new world in the sky. But before he did this, and so that Locaha would not have things all his own way, he breathed into his hands and made the other gods so that while the people should die, it would be in their right time.
    And this is why we are born in water, and do not kill dolphins, and look towards the stars  "

I love the way that Terry Pratchet wrote this. It is an excellent way to think of life. To always live in the right way of nature, be kind to animals, and strive to go to the perfect world. Today in history we had a discussion about human rights, and whether different cultures should try to adapt to each other, or just leave eachother alone. I don't understand why some people couldnt just adapt, and try to learn the other peoples culture, instead of just shoving thier own down others throats. That was a random little thought there, but, in the book, the white girl and the Nation boy both adapt to the others culture. I wish the real world could adapt this thinking.

MAN I got off topic. Basically? read this book. Its great:)

What made my day: uhhmmm.....
why: uughghhghmmm... yeah no

Being sick is...... fun?

Sooo guess what I did ALL of yesterday? Thats right. puked. yummy. I had food poisoning (from eating some raw eggs) AND the stomach flu. Coke pretty much saved my life. And yeah. Thats it furr now!!

What made my day: sam bringing me Jamba Juice!
Why: because i could actually eat it without throwing up!

P.S. 16 days!!!!

Songss!?:)

Soooo I don't really have anything to post about today. Uhm. Here are my favorite songs at the moment:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o9tJW9MDs2M

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jLK2bpJixLA

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JwQZQygg3Lk

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U0CGsw6h60k

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iWOyfLBYtuU

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cmb8_KsrNSQ

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=awd-LZTIR5w

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KF7OkFD31Ek

OH WAIT!! I thought about something to post about!! The song "King Of Anything" by Sara Barellies. I hate it.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eR7-AUmiNcA

I hate this song with a fiery passion. Mostly I hate these lyrics:

"All my life, I've tried, to keep everybody happy while I just hurt and hide.
Waiting for someone to tell me it's my turn to decide"

It makes her sound like some quiet, unforceful woman letting men make the decisions. It makes me crazy to hear that. I hate it when people are like that. Just letting others make choices for them. But lots of people love this song. One being my mother. She says it is her theme song? For my dad? Wierd. I guess you have to be a special kind of person to like this.

What made my day: walking home from school
Why: It was warm enough to walk without a jacket!

The definition of beautiful

Beauty: the quality present in a thing or person that gives intense pleasure or deep satisfaction to the mind. I have been wanting to post about this for a long time. Everyone is beautiful in their own way. Not to sound cheezy or anything but yeah. Whether it be their eyes, or their mind, or even their understanding of basic human morality, everyone has at least something. I don't exactly know what kind of beauty i have though. A couple weeks ago in young women, we had a lesson on eating healthy. Random I know. In our lesson we learned that junk food is put on this earth by the devil. When we eat things that are bad for our bodies, we are letting the devil in, because God would never tell us we are fat or ugly when we look into the mirror. Then, when we are so taken over by self hatred and insecurity, the devil strikes, and you end up in a place where you really don't want to be. Bascically, the lesson was be good to your body or you will end up being vunderable to the devil. This lesson hit me really hard, because yeah my friends and even people i don't know call me beautiful or gorgeous, but I don't see it. I don't want to just have outer beauty that I sometimes can't see. I want to be beautiful inside too. But today i was thinking about my insecurities, and it got me thinking: why does God only make some people physically attractive? In church we learn that we are only given trials that we can get through, and what if being the ugly girl is one of them? What if He makes people look the way they do, because they couldn't handle looking any other way? Like all the incredibly gorgeous people out there could never handle being unattractive, and the people that aren't so gorgeous are that way because they CAN handle being different. That thought makes complete sense to me. In march I was having huge self esteem issues, and i thought I was never going to be good enough for anyone. I hated myself. I could not handle feeling like that, even though I wasn't the way I thought I was. This makes me think: am I a weak person because I AM pretty? It's a scary thought. Beauty is such a relative term, and everyone has it in some form, but not everyone can see it. My spiritual thought for the day: let God into your lives, and you will never have to feel unbeautiful again.

What made my day: eating pumpkin fudge
Why: because tomorrow I am not eating sugar anymore for track conditioning

P.s. I cannot stop listening to Why Georgia by John Mayer

Double standards.....

So today. I was in the kitchen when my dad was talking to my brother. My dad was making fun of my brother, because he was flirting with a bunch of girls at school when my dad picked him up. My mother walks in, and says "he wasn't flirting! He was must making friends!" oh but when I want to go hang out with boys, or text them, I am flirting, and I am not allowed to. Did I forget to mention my brother is 13? When I was that age, I wasn't even supposed to THINK about boys. This conversation was such a double standard, for boys vs girls, AND how parents are always hard on the oldest children. We are the Guinea pigs, and parents don't exactly know what to do with us. I don't know, just a thought. Let's see, I woke up feeling Ike it was Saturday and not Friday.
A1: I missed most of my Spanish class to go to an SEOP. I planned most of my classes for next year, and they seem a heck of a lot more fun than sophomore classes.
A2: we played dodgeball in p.e. Today, and then our teacher let us taking a 10 minute nap:)
A3: I cent believe I will be taking 10 more years of this. We learned how to balance chemical reactions. Kill me
A4: algebra 2. Love it?

After school I hung out with nikki. Best friends are just what you need when having boyfriend troubles. Not mine. Hers. I don't have a boyfriend, and I have never kissed anyone. But
that's another post and I am getting off track here. She took me home in her Camaro:) I am currently typing this on my iPad! Love it!

What made my day: watching the lion king with my baby brother!
Why: it brings back childhood memories

Seminary, Basketball and Brian Regan:)

Today I was at school for 13 1/2 hours!

B1 Honors English- finished Macbeth act 2. I can actually understand it!
B2 Seminary: We had an amazing lesson today. It was about trials and how they make you stronger and closer to God. This lesson hit me really hard, because I have been going through a lot of trials lately. My teacher told our class a story that went like this "When I was a sophmore, a girl that I didnt really know befriended me. She took me into her group of friends, and eventually we were best friends. We started going out, and one day I took her on a date. It was so tense the whole time, and even though we were sitting close together, we were miles apart with what we were feeling. After the date, when I was driving her home, I asked her what was wrong. She told me that she didn't want to talk about it. At the end of the drive home, I asked her again. She looked at me, then got out of the car and never looked back. I never talked to that friend again. Frequently I asked God, why did I have to loose this friend? I liked her so much, and she was my best friend in the whole universe. I had prayed so hard and asked for her to stay my friend, but she just left. She didn't care. A couple of years later, when I was teaching Seminary, a student came up and told me about her boyfriend that she liked alot. She said that she really cared for him, but she still wanted to keep the church dating standards. I told her to look up John 3:30. It simply says : He must increase, but I must decrease. She looked at me like I was crazy, and said that she didn't understand. I told her that it meant that the person that you care about the most, and they care about you, might be overpassing Christ in prority. You must decrease so the person can realize how much they need Christ in thier lives, and not just you. Suddenly I realized, that is why my best friend had abandend me so many years ago. After she left, I was so lonely, and I turned to God for help. That was a turning point in my life. Now I am so grateful for the experience, and I understand now." Can I just say, thank you Brother Moore:) That was exactly what I needed to hear today. I am going through the exact same situation right now, my best friend is gone, but maybe it is because I need to come unto God again
B3 History: oh so boring
B4: choir!!! I love this class:)
After school me and Nikki went to basketball games from 3-9. Our sophmore and JV teams won, but Varsity lost. We were ahead the whole game, but the other school just barely pulled through. Frustrating!

I found my old CD of Brian Regan! I have been listening to him all night on my ipad (yes I did say ipad!)

what made my day:  Brother Moore
Why: he said exactly what I needed to hear:)

UPDATE:)

So I realize that I have been neglecting my blog a bit. But hey don't blame me if it is the last thing on my list:) So new post? lettss seeee. Its officially been one week. since what you ask? Thanksgiving!! Ahhh I am glad its over! Sorry but I hate it. So on friday I went ice skating. I weirdly did not see anyone that I knew. On Friday night and no one was there! Crazy! But it was oh so fun:) On saturday I went golfing with Adam. It was warm enough to go golfing. Utah weather is so strange, because on Sunday it snowed! You know what that means? Snow slushies!!! Here is the recipie:
1. go outside
2. pack a cup with snow
3. pour beverage of choice in the cup
4. stir and enjoy:)

These sound crazy I am sure. But they are the best slushies I have tasted and the texture is ahhmazing! But my mother won't let me eat them alot, because they are "bad for you"  pshh whatever. Yesterday I spent with my bestie Nikki. We went to Subway and then Iceberg! The Subway people must have laughed so hard when we went from one restraunt to the next. I spent most of my evening trying to sort out the drama of high school life that is constantly around. World Peace sounds very nice right now. Today was school.
A1: Spanish one. This class is a bit boring for me because I already took three years of spanish, and I had to start over. But thats for another post. We seperated into groups and had to present in front of the class, and everyone had to go but our group. Score!
A2: P.E. We had a choice between indoor frisbee and weight training. Weight training it was, and I am so sore! But I did get to 12 push ups:)
A3: Chemistry: we had a test today. I was one of the three people in the class that got a 100%. Can you say nerd?
A4: Algebra 2. I ACTUALLY UNDERSTOOD!!!

Which brings us to now. Goodbye blogging world. I am off to eat a doreo:)

P.S. recipe for doreos
1. put cookies and cream ice cream in a cup
2. pour sunny D into the cup
3. enjoy:)
Ohh me and the wierd things I eat

What made my day: Landen Schaelling
For: this text "His manlihood was threatened when he saw me because he was thinking "ahh that dude is so hot I would go gay for him.""