college parte uno

hellloooo

so!

college

last sunday adam came and visited me!

and my parents came too

we went to walmart and then adam and i got to hang out all day 

as much fun as it was to have him here, it really, really sucked for him to leave. 

like, way more than i thought it would

and i thought i could come home for labor day weekend, but i had to work yesterday and today

and then, he thought he could come up here for the weekend, but then he wasnt allowed to

it was just really disappointing all around

im still a little sad :(

ummmmm anyways

so the first week of REAL college

i am taking 18 credits

HOLY

but yeah, its not too bad so far

so i am taking spanish 1020, biology 1610, pe 1010, math 1050, USU 1340, USU 1010, plus math recitation, biology labs and supplemental instruction, and i am going to fit an institute class in there somewhere

people have told me that taking a language in college is really brave, since they are hard classes. but i am really enjoying it! i am learning so much already! 

but i do have about 2 1/2 hours of homework from that class every day

whooops

ummmmm 

i dont have a lot to talk about, since all i have been doing is school, working, and running 

speaking of which, i went on a run yesterday at 2 p.m. 

it was a HORRIBLE idea

i got so dehydrated and i basically walked half of it

when i got back to my apartment i collapsed onto the couch and slept for like 2 hours

yeah, it was bad

but! 

on fridays my classes end at 10:30, so its like i always have 3 day weekends! 

and i dont have anything to do this 3 day weekend :/

all of my roommates are gone except for one

and adam was supposed to be here to keep me company!

but no :(

okay now im complaining

guess what!

last night i made twenty dollars in tips from pizza pie

and i got hit on by some nerds

its great (:

i love working there!!!!

i can see heavenly father in my life so much right now

i am being so blessed, even though its really hard to be away from all the people i love

i fit in SO well at ppc 

last night we were overstaffed because it was later in the night and it wasnt as busy, so they had to send two or three girls home

i got to stay over two girls who have worked there way longer than i have

it was such a great feeling!

i even get to bike to work, which i love

the only thing that sucks is biking home, because its 11 p.m. and dark and uphill

but its okay, i am getting a ton of exercise!

im telling ya, im losing the freshman fifteen

promise

also, i have had this quote swirling around in my head this week

"being an adult means you can eat as much candy as you want. being a responsible adult means you dont."

but guess what?

i can drink AS MUCH SODA AS I WANT TO

and i am taking full advantage of it! 

i am so in love with diet soda its a little ridiculous

if i drank alcohol i would be an alcoholic

like, without a doubt. 

p.s. speaking of soda, this dude at the cash register at Lee's gave me free soda, just because

it was awesome!

okaaaaaaaaaaaaaay well im sure this post will be way boring for everyone

but I am LOVING college!

even though i really miss adam :(

keep calm and college on?

bye (:

during my first week of college I.....

hi, let me first say that, while typing the title, i wrote FURST.

whoops. i promise i made it into college!

okay, so i have been living the college life for about a week now

and it is getting much easier (:

i miss adam everyday, but not as much as i used to, which is good, because i can handle it

and guess what!

HE IS VISITING TOMORROW

I AM BEYOND EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

okay anyways!

so my first week of college!

it can be summed up in about 7 words

1. WALKING

oh my goodness! I think i have walked 30 miles this week

i walk EVERYWHERE

to class, home from class, during class, to work, home from work, to the bus, home from the bus, to the
student center, up the stairs to my apartment

i even went on a hike to this wayyy cool place called the concrete jungle

look it up

its crazy!

its like i am at disneyland, everyday

but its way good for me!

i have been wanting to start running again, and the best way to start running after shin splints is to start walking

so thats what i have been doing!

2. PLANNING

i have to plan everything!

i have to take the bus everywhere, so i always have to leave at least an hour early to wherever i am going

then, i have to plan what to buy at the store, what to make for dinner, what to do when my boyfriend comes up, when to do homework, when to SHOWER

its crazy how busy i am!

i wonder if i will ever NOT be busy

probs not

3. WORKING

i think it is my thing to have two jobs!

so, first, i got a job at pizza pie cafe, which is adam's most favoritest place in the whole world

(shh. im in college)

i buss tables all day (bus? buss?)

ive already made 20 bucks in tips!

then, i got another job at the university inn, where i buss tables from 6 a.m. to 10 a.m.

yeah. six ay emm

but i will be rolling in money!

4. RUNNING

okay, i went running once.

i did have to run to the bus once though?








5. CONNECTIONS

its the reason i had to come up here so early, its like a pre-college class, where we do fun stuff like bowling and walking the campus and checking out the bus. we also met William Kamkwamba , who made a windmill out of scrap metal in his home country of Malawi and gave clean electricity to his village.

basically, it was way cool.

6. LOSING

okay. so i lost my wallet

with credit and debit cards, bank accounts, health insurance cards, my license, my A card, my temple recommend, my mailbox key, my room key, and 30 dollars in it

but, i found it the next day!

some kind, kind soul turned it in!

i think its because i had 30 dollars of tithing money in it (;

in other news, i am losing the freshman fifteen

i have been eating SO well lately!

its so easy to do when your boyfriend isnt taking you out to eat every two hours

(i know, i know, i can NOT complain about adam. hes amazing. and a boy, which is nice to have.)

i am determined to not only NOT gain the freshman fifteen, but to lose it!

125 here i come?

WAIT DID I JUST TELL EVERYONE HOW MUCH I WEIGH?!?!?!?!?!?!?

(in VERY unrelated news, I am up to a 34C hollaaaa)

7. MISSING

i miss everyone!

especially adam and megan

but i am making so many new friends!

and i miss kaleb

and my family

and zurchers (is that weird???)

8. MAT KEARNEY

he is the only music i have been listening to

sooooo good

  

welp, thats it!

i hope everyone is enjoying college, or work, or whatevs they are doing

p.s. i got hit on at work today, while wearing a gross apron/shirt combination since i got called in early and barely had time to shower, let alone wash my icky work clothes

go me?

im not excited for all of the gross upper-class men on the prowl for "freshmeat"

if anyone calls me that i will call them a sexist and a gross human being

teach them bro-dudes a lesson

okay im getting weird

keep calm and carry on!

goodnight

(:

from my dorm room

hello friends!

i am officially moved into my dorm room at 1275 east 1000 north logan, utah

yeesh, its way weird!!

we left at 9 a.m. yesterday morning, and i was a mess

but before that, adam and i had our last few days together

that was horrible, but good, in a way

we did a TON of fun stuff!

on wednesday we got huge snowies and we went to a bunch of random stores and just enjoyed being together!

we took a million and a half wierdo couple pictures

 we even had my mom take real, professional pictures of us. it kinda felt like an engagement photo shoot, but really it was just a goodbye photo shoot.

 we also went to brick oven!

the past week was really, really difficult. along with working, packing and generally getting ready to leave, i also had to mentally deal with the fact that i wasnt going to see adam again for a long time. it didnt seem real, and it still kind of doesnt. the last night was the hardest, of course, but it was also the best.

it started off at 12 a.m. when i chugged a diet vanilla coke and stayed up for the next five hours working on adams present

i made him a notebook that i had been writing in all summer, along with actual letters and a bunch of cute drawings and pictures of us

it took me a way long time, but i think i got some closure from it

it was a hard night, knowing id only have one more day with him.                                                                                later that day, after 2 hours of sleep and a 2 hour work meeting, adam came over and we finished packing up my room. we laughed and kissed and tried not to cry. plot twist, i bawled. then we went to adams house and i gave him my present, and he loved                                                                  it. it was so bitter sweet though.

   

then, of course, i had to go to work. that was an awful shift. not only was i dreading saying goodbye to adam, but i also had to say goodbye to a job that i really like and to co workers i am friends with. 

adam picked me up from work, and i immediately burst into tears, and so did he. so we sat there in zurchers parking lot for about 10 minutes, drowning in our sorrow.

then, after pulling it together, we went to the spaghetti factory and ate dinner

everyone gave us weird looks when we walked in, since both of our faces were red and puffy

after eating dinner, adam gave me his present. its a blanket he made completely by himself. dont even get me started on how cute it is. 

then, we went to the riverwoods. we went into the big gazebo, turned on pandora, and danced like fools

people stared, but what did we care, this was one of our last moments, and it was so special.

 this is the last picture i took of the night

isnt it beautiful?

after riverwoods, we went on a spree of cute places that we have had cute moments together

riverwoods, were we used to hang out when we were unsure about dating eachother

then nelsons grove, were we used to go on walks together

then the swing by the lake, were we had our first kiss

then the pond at uvu, were we went instead of the senior movie night to talk about our future together

and lastly, to the ledge above squaw peak, where we watched the fireworks explode over utah valley on the 4th of july

then came the hardest part

we sat on my porch for about 40 minutes, trying to pull ourselves away from eachother

it was so, so, so hard, and sad, and horrible

after a million hugs and a thousand kisses, we said our final goodbye

as i shut the door, i felt all the air leave me, and i watched him walk to his car, knowing it was the last time id see him for a long time

then i went to bed, so exhausted from sadness

the next morning i woke up and had to say goodbye to my brothers 

i lost it when i said goodbye to kaleb

i miss everyone there so much

we started our drive to usu, and stopped at maverick, and i couldnt hold back tears there. adam and i went there all the time, and it hit me that i wasnt going to be there again. it was so hard leaving, so hard. 

 we got to utah state, unpacked, went to walmart, ate lunch, and then my parents left

it was so weird, like, what do i do now?\

so i finished unpacking, read my connections book, ate a poptart for dinner, and thought that i could actually do this

then, adam called, and i lost it. i went on a walk while talking to him, and i was bawling so hard i could barely breathe.

its a weird combination, being so excited to be in college, then being so petrified because you are in a place you dont know, and also being so, so sad and missing everything you left in orem.

ive never had to deal with any of these emotions before, and its hard to know what to do with them

but its good to know that i am loved, and one of my co workers just texted me telling me good luck and to call if i needed anything.

how sweet (:

anyways, my room is really cute

want to know a secret?

i cryed while writing this

the pain is still so fresh

but thank you for reading, because typing all of that out actually really helped me.

keep calm and carry on

that is seriously my new motto

untill december, when i can see him again

im off to apply for jobs and to get a bike lock

goodbye (: