i wish i was a sophmore again. because i honestly dont know how to handle all of this stress that i already have from being a junior. i have the worst math teacher known to man, who teaches us nothing and then expects us to know how to test on it. then i have my freaking physics class, which is incredibly difficult, but we cant come in and ask questions because he doesnt do private tutoring. and i have biotech, which is a whole new thing to learn, and i cant study for the test tomorrow because her website isnt working. then i have my cross country team, who i am getting allt his pressure from to run, when i cant. i wish i could but my shins make it so i cant. and i have all of these things to deal with, and i have to worry about straight A's, because all i want is to get a scholarship, but im not a genius like the other people that i take hard classes with. so i have to do all of this work just to get the to the same level as they are, and i dont want to drop physics but i think that i might, because its just too hard, and im just not smart enough. and my parents are always telling me that i need to be nicer, and that i have a bad attitude about everything. im trying to balance every part of my life out, and its HARD. plus, my parents want me to get a job on top of all of that. so as i am sitting here bawling my eyes out because i have three tests tomorrow that i have no idea how to prepare for, i am wondering why i do this to myself. i could just as easily get a scholarship if i took normal physics right? or even physics 1010? all of it is freaking stressful, and im not getting any help from my physics partner, or my math teacher. i feels like im this total idiot that doesnt know how to do anything, and everyone else does. PLUS i havent gotten asked to mv homecoming. and everyone else has. i mean, i think im okay looking, right? im pretty nice, and i dont order really expensive things on the menu. why does no one want to go with me? why is the person i want to go with already asking someone else? life just sucks right now, and all i can do right now is go to bed, so thats what i am doing.
night..
Haley! Call Sam (8014141894) He will help you find a part time job if you want, and he helps people find and apply for scholarships. There is help out there. You're not alone. What kind of Math is it? I used to tutor HS math kids. And would be happy to help if I can. Remember all you can do is your best and after you've done that it just takes a little bit of faith, and you don't have to be perfect. You are great just the way you are!
ReplyDeleteI agree with Andrea. You are not the only one that feels that way! I felt like that in HS too. And I even survived;) Keep your chin up it will get better. If you try to enjoy where you are right now it will get easier too. Love you Haley, I think you're amazing!!
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