snakes, pictures, and T.M.I

so. yesterday. was freaking emotional. lets just say, i woke up to some facebook news that freaked me out and i cryed for an hour. T.M.I. yeah. then i went to a choir concert, and we sang breath of heaven. that song. it touches my heart everytime we sing it.

you dont even know. so at the concert, there was a TON of sugar. seriously. cheesecake, and a chocolate fountain. my two favorite things. and i didnt eat ANY. yeah i felt pretty good. anywho. me and my moms side of the family went to lunch, where i thought we were celebrating my concert, but we were actually getting together for mothers day. i felt pretty dumb. my grandma made us take pictures, and my aunt made us all pose like this:

oh boy. i am so white. its tragic.

anywho. so me and nikki rode around in her brand new car. its pretty beast. we drove jessie to a birthday party, and we looked at the amazing swimming pool, and aparently there was a super hot lifeguard checking me out. but poor, oblivious me didnt notice anything. ha yeah. so thats pretty much it.

oh wait!!

today, we caught a snake!

yeah. i totally love snakes(: and people think im weird for it. but oh well. i will love them anyway.

yeah thats it(:

bye!

hot air

so. today sucked. can i just say. i am SO sick of drama. seriously. everywhere i turn someone is sad, or fighting, or keeping secrets. the only person i know that isnt full of drama is my little brother kaleb. who is 5 years old. i gave my extentions to my friend megan today. i feel awesome about it(: im confident enough to go without the fake hair, and it feels great. but dude. i am so excited for summer. my absolute favorite part of the summer is when you turn the car on, and the air conditioner blasts hot air that smells soooo good. my second favorite part is cross country(: ahhh. so excited! anyway. this post was short and boring. peace out

epiphany

so today. i had an epiphany.

I can't change other people, but I can change myself

I realized. there will always be those people. the girl who hates me. the boy who will never belong to anyone but her, even if he never admits it to anyone, even himself. the boy who will always belong to her, and feels the need to share it with the world. the girl who wont get over herself. the boy who will always be honest with me. the boy who will always be a part of me. the family that loves me. i realized that, no matter how hard i try, these people will never change. but I, I can change. i can fall in love. i can get kissed. i can make new friends, and have new experiences. i realized, i dont have to worry about anyone else but me. as hard as that is.

on a happier note.

i also realized that my body is getting used to healthy food. today, i went to a baseball game at the school. i was STARVING. so my friend jake brought wendy's over for our little friend group. i didnt really want any, but i ate like 10 fries. then, me and nikki went to her house, and i started feeling sick. my mouth felt gross, and i just felt icky. i realized, it was the fries! the fries that used to taste sooo good are disgusting now. it was really cool actually. soooo. yeah. deep post today. 

p.s this is my favorite commercial of the moment(: 

double p.s. on saturday, symphonic voices and conbrio are having a womenhood celebration concert for mothers day. it is at moutain view in the auditorium at 11:00 on saturday. come!

TRIPLE P.S.

you know what i really really hate?

wheennnn peeeooplleee taalllkkk liikkee THISSSSS(:(:(:(:(:

not to say that i never throw in the occasional waaayyy or soooo. but thats how i would say it in real life. peeooppllee doooonttt taalkkk reaalllyy sloowwllyyy iinn reeaall liiiffeee.

seriously.

its obvious that my heart beats for you

sooo. today. was greaattt(: it started off terrible. i dont really wanna say why. but it did. i did homework for 3 hours, and then LANDEN came over. yeah. im finally cool enough to hang out with him. we went to mutual for a barbeekew haha bbq. and it was FUN. we sat around the fire and everyone said one thing that they believe in. mine was "i believe that God answers your prayers" it was really great(: me and kline and landen chilled the whole time. and made really funny jokes. and i stole klines gum. and we tried and failed to take good pictures. and i texted random girls on klines phone. then landen came to my house and we watched this

it was a bad day gone excellent(:

kay bye!

wait.

something really wierd happened to me at lunch today.

so i was sitting there, just minding my own business, when this cool kid ive never talked to comes up to me and says: hey! pretend like im asking you for your number because itll make someone really jealous. and i was so confused. so yeah. i also listened to this nonstop

now its the real good bye!

the girl who broke in two

So. Yesterday sucked. But today was great. I wore a super cute outfit with shorts. One of the administrative ladies told me they were too short, even though I saw like ten other girls wearing shorts waaaaayyy shorter than mine. During english we had book discussions, which equals talking about prom and grades. Then in history we pretty much sat on computers the whole period. It was lovely(: during lunch, me and stephh and Julia had a TON of fun. I auditioned for acapella during choir. I'm pretty sure I didn't make it. Hopefully I will.... After school me and nikki got sushi and naked. I felt super super healthy. I haven't had any sugar for the whole week. There is soda, cookies, ice cream and sugar at my house. And I haven't had any of it! but i have been wierdly craving tortilla chips. wierd. right? yeah. but im wierd so its okay. so i watched glee and make it or break it. and got this amazing song:

this is the wierdest video. ever.  

nothing will rhyme, nothing sounds right now your gone

we all have those days. when everything seems to crash down at once. when you are trying really REALLY hard not to eat sugar, so you are tired and out of energy. when you find out something that you really, REALLY did not want to know, and there is no one there to tell you its okay. when you have choir practice after school, where you sing Breathe Of Heaven and almost start crying. when you walk home alone and think about life. when you write a post about how your day sucked. but, i did have one good thing today. my friend julia jones was there when no one else was. i love this girl. seriously. anywho. its just been one of those days.

masquerades galore

so. this weeked. has been amazing. FIRST of all, on friday, i went to morningside. i had to get up at 4:30 to shower and get ready. it was totally worth it though. there was this quote from Andrew Glover that said "Jesus is the Christ, he is my Christ, he is your Christ. And once you realize this, nothing else really matters." it was so good! after discovering that we had extended lunch that day, i got checked out to go look for prom shoes! hahaha silly me. my shoes didnt even match. i just really liked them and my mom said that i could only get shoes for prom today, so i got those and wore them to prom(: that night was stephs 16th birthday partay. it was way fun! i was going to wear my prom dress to it, but my dress got ordered in the wrong size as well so they had to fix it. i just ended up wearing a skirt. lame.  it was still way fun! too bad i dont get to have a 16th

 party......... anyways. me and nikki left the party to go get sushi. and of course the party gets really good after we leave. but sushi. so i got a HUUGGEE thing, and i thought i could eat it all, but i couldnt. i ate alot though. after eating all i could, i was supossed to go to a young womens sleepover. but i was so exausted that i went home and slept. only to wake up at 8, nervous and sick. seriously. i did not feel good. and thats probably not the best thing to be feeling on the day of prom. so i watched t.v., ate sushi for breakfast, and took medicine. i was okay then. sooo i got picked up, to got on the day date. we went to trafalga in lehi. it was super cool. we played lazer tag, we mini golfed. it was just awesome. yeaahhh. the guys said that they had a hair appointment, so we left, but later i found out that they just wanted to go take a nap. losers. i didnt start getting ready untill 5, and i was getting picked up at 6. it was stressful. the night went by really fast, and we took lots of pictures.

 

 

the prom was way fun! the last group picture is my favorite, even though my tongue is sticking out(:

this was our prom theme song. we listened to it everytime we got in the car. and we blasted it after an especially awkward moment dropping someone off... kay bye(: