during my first week of college I.....

hi, let me first say that, while typing the title, i wrote FURST.

whoops. i promise i made it into college!

okay, so i have been living the college life for about a week now

and it is getting much easier (:

i miss adam everyday, but not as much as i used to, which is good, because i can handle it

and guess what!

HE IS VISITING TOMORROW

I AM BEYOND EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

okay anyways!

so my first week of college!

it can be summed up in about 7 words

1. WALKING

oh my goodness! I think i have walked 30 miles this week

i walk EVERYWHERE

to class, home from class, during class, to work, home from work, to the bus, home from the bus, to the
student center, up the stairs to my apartment

i even went on a hike to this wayyy cool place called the concrete jungle

look it up

its crazy!

its like i am at disneyland, everyday

but its way good for me!

i have been wanting to start running again, and the best way to start running after shin splints is to start walking

so thats what i have been doing!

2. PLANNING

i have to plan everything!

i have to take the bus everywhere, so i always have to leave at least an hour early to wherever i am going

then, i have to plan what to buy at the store, what to make for dinner, what to do when my boyfriend comes up, when to do homework, when to SHOWER

its crazy how busy i am!

i wonder if i will ever NOT be busy

probs not

3. WORKING

i think it is my thing to have two jobs!

so, first, i got a job at pizza pie cafe, which is adam's most favoritest place in the whole world

(shh. im in college)

i buss tables all day (bus? buss?)

ive already made 20 bucks in tips!

then, i got another job at the university inn, where i buss tables from 6 a.m. to 10 a.m.

yeah. six ay emm

but i will be rolling in money!

4. RUNNING

okay, i went running once.

i did have to run to the bus once though?








5. CONNECTIONS

its the reason i had to come up here so early, its like a pre-college class, where we do fun stuff like bowling and walking the campus and checking out the bus. we also met William Kamkwamba , who made a windmill out of scrap metal in his home country of Malawi and gave clean electricity to his village.

basically, it was way cool.

6. LOSING

okay. so i lost my wallet

with credit and debit cards, bank accounts, health insurance cards, my license, my A card, my temple recommend, my mailbox key, my room key, and 30 dollars in it

but, i found it the next day!

some kind, kind soul turned it in!

i think its because i had 30 dollars of tithing money in it (;

in other news, i am losing the freshman fifteen

i have been eating SO well lately!

its so easy to do when your boyfriend isnt taking you out to eat every two hours

(i know, i know, i can NOT complain about adam. hes amazing. and a boy, which is nice to have.)

i am determined to not only NOT gain the freshman fifteen, but to lose it!

125 here i come?

WAIT DID I JUST TELL EVERYONE HOW MUCH I WEIGH?!?!?!?!?!?!?

(in VERY unrelated news, I am up to a 34C hollaaaa)

7. MISSING

i miss everyone!

especially adam and megan

but i am making so many new friends!

and i miss kaleb

and my family

and zurchers (is that weird???)

8. MAT KEARNEY

he is the only music i have been listening to

sooooo good

  

welp, thats it!

i hope everyone is enjoying college, or work, or whatevs they are doing

p.s. i got hit on at work today, while wearing a gross apron/shirt combination since i got called in early and barely had time to shower, let alone wash my icky work clothes

go me?

im not excited for all of the gross upper-class men on the prowl for "freshmeat"

if anyone calls me that i will call them a sexist and a gross human being

teach them bro-dudes a lesson

okay im getting weird

keep calm and carry on!

goodnight

(:

from my dorm room

hello friends!

i am officially moved into my dorm room at 1275 east 1000 north logan, utah

yeesh, its way weird!!

we left at 9 a.m. yesterday morning, and i was a mess

but before that, adam and i had our last few days together

that was horrible, but good, in a way

we did a TON of fun stuff!

on wednesday we got huge snowies and we went to a bunch of random stores and just enjoyed being together!

we took a million and a half wierdo couple pictures

 we even had my mom take real, professional pictures of us. it kinda felt like an engagement photo shoot, but really it was just a goodbye photo shoot.

 we also went to brick oven!

the past week was really, really difficult. along with working, packing and generally getting ready to leave, i also had to mentally deal with the fact that i wasnt going to see adam again for a long time. it didnt seem real, and it still kind of doesnt. the last night was the hardest, of course, but it was also the best.

it started off at 12 a.m. when i chugged a diet vanilla coke and stayed up for the next five hours working on adams present

i made him a notebook that i had been writing in all summer, along with actual letters and a bunch of cute drawings and pictures of us

it took me a way long time, but i think i got some closure from it

it was a hard night, knowing id only have one more day with him.                                                                                later that day, after 2 hours of sleep and a 2 hour work meeting, adam came over and we finished packing up my room. we laughed and kissed and tried not to cry. plot twist, i bawled. then we went to adams house and i gave him my present, and he loved                                                                  it. it was so bitter sweet though.

   

then, of course, i had to go to work. that was an awful shift. not only was i dreading saying goodbye to adam, but i also had to say goodbye to a job that i really like and to co workers i am friends with. 

adam picked me up from work, and i immediately burst into tears, and so did he. so we sat there in zurchers parking lot for about 10 minutes, drowning in our sorrow.

then, after pulling it together, we went to the spaghetti factory and ate dinner

everyone gave us weird looks when we walked in, since both of our faces were red and puffy

after eating dinner, adam gave me his present. its a blanket he made completely by himself. dont even get me started on how cute it is. 

then, we went to the riverwoods. we went into the big gazebo, turned on pandora, and danced like fools

people stared, but what did we care, this was one of our last moments, and it was so special.

 this is the last picture i took of the night

isnt it beautiful?

after riverwoods, we went on a spree of cute places that we have had cute moments together

riverwoods, were we used to hang out when we were unsure about dating eachother

then nelsons grove, were we used to go on walks together

then the swing by the lake, were we had our first kiss

then the pond at uvu, were we went instead of the senior movie night to talk about our future together

and lastly, to the ledge above squaw peak, where we watched the fireworks explode over utah valley on the 4th of july

then came the hardest part

we sat on my porch for about 40 minutes, trying to pull ourselves away from eachother

it was so, so, so hard, and sad, and horrible

after a million hugs and a thousand kisses, we said our final goodbye

as i shut the door, i felt all the air leave me, and i watched him walk to his car, knowing it was the last time id see him for a long time

then i went to bed, so exhausted from sadness

the next morning i woke up and had to say goodbye to my brothers 

i lost it when i said goodbye to kaleb

i miss everyone there so much

we started our drive to usu, and stopped at maverick, and i couldnt hold back tears there. adam and i went there all the time, and it hit me that i wasnt going to be there again. it was so hard leaving, so hard. 

 we got to utah state, unpacked, went to walmart, ate lunch, and then my parents left

it was so weird, like, what do i do now?\

so i finished unpacking, read my connections book, ate a poptart for dinner, and thought that i could actually do this

then, adam called, and i lost it. i went on a walk while talking to him, and i was bawling so hard i could barely breathe.

its a weird combination, being so excited to be in college, then being so petrified because you are in a place you dont know, and also being so, so sad and missing everything you left in orem.

ive never had to deal with any of these emotions before, and its hard to know what to do with them

but its good to know that i am loved, and one of my co workers just texted me telling me good luck and to call if i needed anything.

how sweet (:

anyways, my room is really cute

want to know a secret?

i cryed while writing this

the pain is still so fresh

but thank you for reading, because typing all of that out actually really helped me.

keep calm and carry on

that is seriously my new motto

untill december, when i can see him again

im off to apply for jobs and to get a bike lock

goodbye (:

There is a hurricane inside of me

hi

today is something i dont do very much

post about my

FEELINGS

ick.

growing up with 3 brothers, having girly, cry-fest, feeling sessions never really happened.

in fact, i dont really like talking about them AT ALL

to anyone

they are such a private part of me, and i dont really want anyone to have them except for me

which is why i never post about anything except for whats happening in my life

but what is happening in my life right now is, simply, feelings

Ive been so busy the past, i dont know, 8 months, but today i had nothing to do except work on packing my room and bathroom

how strange to see my entire life packed up in boxes

it doesnt help that ive been doing it all alone (which i honestly dont mind)

adam is working, my family is running errands

so i am lost in myself and the hurricane inside me

all i can think about is leaving

how will i fit all of my stuff in my tiny dorm room?

how will i pay for anything?

how can i possibly leave all of the amazing people here?

i feel selfish

my heart is breaking

and i am SO excited to go to college, its always been a huge dream of mine, but i never even imagined how hard it would be to go

im putting every ounce of myself into boxes, every memory, every relationship

putting it all away and starting all over

quietly leaving

i really hope someone misses me

because i will miss everything here

now is the time to find strength inside me

this is for the better

this is good

i know this is what heavenly father wants me to do, i just didnt know it would be this difficult

send me your love

keep calm and carry on

:)

5 things

HI

okay so its been almost 2 MONTHS since ive posted

i am sooooooo sorry!

and i could give everyone a million reasons why, but the truth is ive just been so BUSY, and blogging takes a long time and i have barely had time to shower

im not going to fit everything ive been doing in one post though, so here are the top 5 things ive been doing this summer!

1. WORKING

hooooly heavens. i have two jobs now. I nanny in the mornings, then i work at zurchers in the night. i usually work 8-10 hours a day, and i am raking in money. i actually really like working two jobs, even though i dont get to see adam or my family or even my friends that much.

thats bridgette, one of the girls i nanny

she was in the bath one day and started shouting "i love you haley! i love you haley!"

it was so precious (:(:(:(:(:(:(: 

2. GETTING READY FOR SCHOOL

my goodness, who knew how much you had to do to go to college. Ive been packing up my room (i still have clothes i dont want if anyone is interested?), getting credit cards, planning schedules, applying for jobs, getting bank accounts, taking placement tests, saving every ounce of money i make, shopping. its endless

 this is on the way to take a placement test 

 this is afterward, when we were on our way to go shopping! 

and this is rich hall, where i will be living for the next year!

3. GETTING HIT BY CARS

yep! you read that right! on my way home from nannying on monday, this guy hit me while i was on my bike!

it was a miracle, because i didnt have a helmet on and i was okay, i just have a bunch of bruises and an aching neck, but im alive! p.s. that bruise is much worse in person

4. FRIENDS!!!!

I have barely seen my friends at all this summer. Ive been on a walk/ swimming with megan a couple of times, and Ive seen landen once when we went to firehouse. but other than that, i havent seen anyone! and its super sad, because i love my friends, i am just SO busy!

this is from our 8 a.m. walk in the canyon (since i still cant run, but that another sadness for another day). it was so awesome hanging out with her! i looooove my best friend (:

5. BOYFRIEND

hi. i have the BEST boyfriend in the entire world. he picks me up from work when i close, he takes me on dates all the time, he even surprises me with soda when i am sore from GETTING HIT BY A CAR. we hang out any time we can, and i am so happy. its been hard though, trying to be completely there when i am living with a bullet to my head. i have to leave him in 10 days, and it will be the hardest thing i have done to date. but still, i am happy i got to have him for the 8 month i have  (:

I KNOW WE ARE ADORABLE

i have a bunch of other things to talk about, like how i have been living on about 10 pieces of clothing since the rest of my stuff is packed, or how i think i just hit puberty this summer, or how i just got a call from a pharmacy that wanted to hire me, but im leaving in 10 days so i cant work there and how i am so disapointed and how i went to a wedding yesterday but i cant right now because i have a million things to do

keep calm and carry on

i hope everyone will miss me when im gone

when im gone , when im goooooone 

YOURE GONNA MISS ME WHEN IM GONE

okay im off to pack some more

goodbye!