wierdest. day. of my life.

sooo today has been really, really wierd. mostly because a bunch of people ive never talked to started talking to me. i cant even believe how wierd its been. soooooooooo i dont really have anything to say right now... all i know, is that i REALLY want summer. 

  This is me and Julia at the start of summer last year(:

okay

soo

Day Three

"Describe the perfect date"

hmmm. this is difficult. definatly somewhere where we could walk around holding hands. hmmmmmmm. it would actually be really really fun to go to the beach. we could go body surfing, and then get smoothies, and walk on the pier. yesssssssssss. that would be the most perfect date EVER!

kay

bye

best. day. ever.

wow, so yesterday was basically amazing. except i didnt look very good, based on the fact that i woke up at 7 and didnt have time to shower. fun eh? annyways. so i had a spanish test, and i didnt study at all (because i woke up late), so i thought i was gunna fail. but, i actually knew EVERYTHING on the test! well, i had to b.s two answers, but thats almost everything. then in health, we had a sub, so we did nothing. then in chemistry, i had a test, and i got a 90! not as good as i could have done, but still. at least i didnt fail. theenn during lunch me and julia went crazy, and then our class got my math teacher distracted for most of the period. its wierd. i actually really like math. nerd much? yeah. then after school, i was walking with megan, and we spotted a guy with a LIZARD! he had a real, breathing, alive lizard, just chilling in his hand. we went over to touch it, and then he goes : uhh,, you might not want to touch it, its posionous. okay guy, just carry around a spikey posionous lizard around school. no big deal. sooo to carry on with my amazing day, i watched all of my shows that i missed during the week (modern family, outsourced, vampire diaries and nikita), then me and haley lopp headed out to a party! when i asked my dad if i could go, he says: is it a make out party? and i go: aww yeah dad. we all make out. its awesome. then my dad goes: wow, can i come? hahaha it was hecka funny! the party was great! i danced like a freaking maniac! the song "take it off" by ke$ha comes on, and this kid named dallin kelly puts a girls tank top on (dont worry, she had a shirt on underneath!) and goes crazy. then he takes his shirt off and runs around like crazy. it was HILARIOUS. mv kids are just great(: i hung out with cailey and jessica, then we tried to cram as many people on the couch as we could. annd that was the end of my great day! today, i woke up  to the power being out. good ole orem, our power goes out all the time. i finally took a shower at 12 when the power came back on. then i went to my aunts baby shower, and i was bored, so i stole my moms camera annd:

sooo, back to the daily blog challenge thingy

Day Two

"A photo of something you ate today"

this is a snow slushie. it snowed today so i could finally make one! yes, i realize that snow is really bad for you, but so are twinkies, and everyone eats those anyways. but all you do is take a cup, pack it with snow, pour liquid of choice in, stir, and instant slushie! try one(:

EXACTLY what i need to hear

HEYYY. so. im back. lleetttss seee. this week has flown by! the weeks without school on monday are the best(: and let me tell you. i did NOT want to go to school this week. but. i started the week off with seminary, and it seems like my teacher always has the exact lesson that i need. in december, we had a lesson on how trials make you stronger, and it was EXACTLY what i needed to hear. see it here. then, on monday, we had the perfect lesson. well, it wasnt exactly the lesson, it was a comment from someone. they said

Let your friends make thier own choices

and i was all. WOAH. the church is true! it was great(: okay. then today, i heard exactly what i needed to hear from my ENGLISH teacher. i was all whaa? she said :

How much are you willing to take, and how much are you willing to go through to be someone's friend? true friends don't leave at the first sign of trouble.

and i was all, what the heck? it was crazy! buutt its okay cause now i know what to do! ha okay. so i am taking this little challenge up

Blog Challenge

Day 1 – A photo of yourself and a description of how your day was.

Day 2 – A photo of something you ate today.

Day 3 – Your idea of the perfect first date.

Day 4 – Your favorite photograph of your best friend.

Day 5 – A photo of yourself from high school.

Day 6 – A photo of an animal you’d love to keep as a pet.

Day 7 – Your dream wedding.

Day 8 – A song to match your mood.

Day 9 – A photo of the item you last purchased.

Day 10 – A photo of your favorite place to eat.

Day 11 – What’s in your makeup bag?

Day 12 – A photograph of the town you live in.

Day 13 – Your favorite musician and why?

Day 14 – A TV show you’re currently addicted to.

Day 15 – Something you don’t leave the house without.

Day 16 – Your celebrity crush.

Day 17 – A photo of you and your family.

Day 18 – Something you crave a lot.

Day 19 – Another picture of yourself.

Day 20 – The meaning behind your blog name.

Day 21 – A photo of something that makes you happy.

Day 22 – A letter to someone who has hurt you recently.

Day 23 – 15 facts about you.

Day 24 – A photo of something that means a lot to you.

Day 25 – What’s in your purse?

Day 26 – A photo of somewhere you’ve been to.

Day 27 – A picture of you last year and now and how have you changed since then?

Day 28 – Your favorite movie.

Day 29 – Something you could never get tired of doing.

Day 30 – A photograph of yourself today + three good things that have happened in the last 30 days!

Day One

                                  theres the crazy side  

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then there is the cute side

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my day was eehhhh. i looked cute though(: i got to wear my white pants! it makes my day happy when i can wear them! after school i had to walk home in the fareeeezing cold, but thats okay because i got my excersize, and Austin Mcbride waved to me while i was walking.  then i had to study spanish and chemistry the rest of the day. but thats okay. because my lunch was great(: aannnd no one needs to know why! kay bye!

also. i found these, and they are pretty much legit

symbolism

sooo. i dont know what to talk about. ive been reading "The Chosen", and everytime we read it we have to find some symbolism. this has got me thinking about the symbolism in my own life, even in my own blog. the piano keys behind the title symbolized how i am just a little broken. the kind of clothes that i wear symbolize my resistance to boys. my blue streak symbolizes how i wish i was a hipster, but i cant do it, which is why the rest of my hair is blonde. even my love of running symbolizes how i dont like settling down. wierd. i totally just came up with all of those. that symbolizes my ability to B.S. my english assignments(:  ha annyywayys. imma go. but first:

ONE day i will meet him(:

high expectations

aight. sooo a couple days ago one of my friends told me that my expectations for boys were too high. well. its not like i want a prince with flowing hair and a perfect smile and a rich family. no. all i want from a boy is to stay there. to not cheat. i dont think thats too much to ask. sure, i would like him to be nice and smart too. but its not like i am rejecting everyone in search for a "perfect boy" that doesnt even exist. but, i am gunna wait for a guy thats not an idiot, or a cheater, or a trashbag. people make me out to be some stuck up nun, buuttt no. i just dont see the point of liking someone, when they will just hurt you. plus, if i want someone that is awesome, then i will have to make myself awesome as well. i just cant waste time on relationships that are doomed for failure from the start. not to say that every guy is doomed. some of them are great, and on the basketball team, and nice. but thats just a general idea. and even if they DO like you, you know that its just not right. nothing personal. i dont think that people should be mad if I dont like who they want me too. i mean, i dont go around hooking people up (..except landen...(:...), so people (except nikki) shouldnt judge me based on who i like. they should also understand that i KNOW how to stay away from the loosers. wow. that was a vent. annnyyways. so the perfect guy. i have this checklist

Funny
good eyes
cares about his body
taller than me
honest
musically inclined
mormon
good testimony
doesnt swear
good taste in music
dresses well
chivalrous
does what he says he will
kind to animals
not afraid to be silly
going on a mission
good laugh
good with little kids
only likes one girl at a time

now. this sounds like alot. but its just a general idea. i wouldnt break up with a boy because he didnt have everything on my list. but it would be a good deciding factor if choosing between two. ha annyywaays. whats your list? kay bye(:

orem vs mv numba tew

okay. so yesterday was the orem game. we lost. but only by ONE point, in overtime. it was dang crazy! but i know why we lost. because our pep rally SUCKED. seriously. first, it was in the auditorium. second, 70% of it was an old guy giving out awards to teachers. third, the only thing we did was sing the fight song. it was actually kinda awkward. so yeah. me and nikki had solo ensamble after school, and we did pretty good, if i do say so myself. then we headed over to orem. the sophmore game was freaking amazing. it was tyed up at the last 5.8 seconds, and they had the ball. but then one of our team stole it and rushed down the court. he went for a lay-up, but missed, and then someone else tapped it in while the buzzer rang. OH my gosh. it was amazing. the JV game was great too. we totally slaughtered them. plus, my friend dylan got most of the like 46 points. he had a 35 point game, i think. aannndd i hung out with some orem boys during it! nikki's mom said it was illegal to talk to the enemy, but i did it anyways(: but yeah. it was great. the orem game was freaking crazy. a TON of people showed up. at one point i went to get water, and the fans were doing cheers, and i seriously thought the stands were gunna break. i hung out with julia, and we had the most fantastic time. during half time, there was a shooting contest, and two people made half court shots. one was from orem, the other from mountain view. it sucks that basketball season is almost over, they are so much fun to go to.  leetttss seee. i didnt do anything after the game, sadly. and i didnt do anything today either. except i DID realize that i eat like a 5 year old. i am frequently eating juice, cereal, fruit, crackers, cheese, and i always order off the kids menu. wierd. but ohwell. night!

reputations

so. i heard something interesting. last year, there was this boy at my school that everyone loved. he was super popular and invited to all of the parties. he had the hottest girlfriend, and every girl wanted him. but this year, after the school split into MV and Timp, everyone hates him. Its kinda sad actually. all of the girls think he is mean, and he has almost no friends. it must be really tough, to go from being incredibly popular at one school, to a loser in another. but that seems to be the change that happens once we get into high school. take me for example. lets be honest, i was kinda a loser in jr high. but during the summer i decided to change. i started to talk to more people, and now i have tons of friends. even when my best friend left me, i had people to fall back on. if that had happened last year, i would have been lost and alone, but this year it just made me stronger. also, alot of the people that were top of the school last year are just normal this year. it so wierd, i was so used to them being the queens of the school. iiiii dunnooo. its wierd. anyway. im going to bed now. kay bye!

love it(:

Vday

OHHHkay. so today was valentines. during A1 i only got a rose from Nikki, and that made me feel way lame, so during second period i was thinking all about how i was going to write this post about how stupid Vday is. buuuutt then i found out that Dallin got me a rose that got lost, Jake got me a teddy, and Sam took me to Wendys. then my post was going to be about how much Vday rocks. But how stupid would it be if my whole view of the holiday changed JUST because i actually had a good one for once?  and seriously. my Vdays have sucked. in seventh grade i got to watch all my friends get poems from boys. in eigthth grade i got pushed down right in front of the boy i liked. in ninth grade the boy i liked gave a rose to one of my good friends right in front of me. soo excuse me if Vday is a sore subject. ive always seen it from one point of view. ive always been the girl that never gets a rose, and does the walk of shame through gift clad girls down the hallway while your hands are empty. its not like now that i have had a good Vday, that i am a fanatic. i still think its a dumb holiday. because i know. i know how it feels to do the walk of shame. and i dont think Vday will ever mean as much to me as it does for some other girls, the kinds of girls who are devastated when thier boyfriends dont go all out. even when i am married, i wont be the kind of girl who expects alot. maybe thats how its supposed to be? hating Vday for a long time has made me super low matainance. get me a teddy and i will carry it with pride all day. even so, i still think Vday is dumb. with all the interesting history behind it, you would think that we would be able to come up with a love holiday that doesnt make single people feel like crap. and take people just dont understand. they say "its only a day! you will make it through!" and then go home to their signifigant other. they just cant say that. they have the day to celebrate how great it is being taken, and us single ones just get a slap in the face reminding us how painfully single we are. so i think that taken people should suck it up. yeah, be happy in your takeness, but please, dont rub it in our faces. let us have one day out of 365 that we are allowed to complain and wonder why we arent taken. we suck it up so the taken people wont feel bad the rest of year. let us have one day to feel bad for ourselves, and we will let you be happy the rest of the year.
anywho.

 so i read this book  to my little brother tonight, about a cat named splat that had a crush on a kitten. he made her a valentine, and it told her how he likes her on it. but he was scared to give it to him, because everytime she saw him, she pulled his ears and poked his belly, tied his tail and called him smelly. he was finally going to confess his love for her, when a bully at school found the card. the bully insisted that he liked the kitten more, and he had a huge valentine for her. now scrat didnt want to give kitten HIS valentine, so, discouraged, he put it in the trash. but after recieving the bully's valentine, kitten found scrats valentine in the garbage. then she handed scrat the valentine that she had made for him. it read : "your fur is soft, i like to stroke it. you make a silly noise in your belly, when i poke it. your tail's so bendy, it makes me laugh. and you smell really nice, when you've just had a bath." in the end, the two kitties get together. i thought this was the sweetest story ever. but looking deeper into it, i realized, girls almost never are as hard as you think they are. any boy can win over a girl by doing the right things. i have a list of things that i would love a boy to do for me. get me a surprise on valentines. kiss me in the rain. all of those cliche things. but wouldnt it be wonderful if one of those things actually happened? but yeah. the moral of this cute story is never let fear stop you from going after the person you love. you may be pleasantly surprise. also, girls never mean to be hard. all girls want a boy they can fall in love with. "the difference between girls and boys? boys make a girl think they love her when they really dont, and a girl makes a boy think she doesnt love him when she really does" sad but true. okay. so last of all. some of my favorite love songs:

totally crazy

wow. i am so tired. okay so yesterday was crazy. on friday i had a sleepover with nikki, and we went to maceys at 1 in the morning and got kool aid. we were waiting for it to cool down, so we put it in the freezer and sat there and waited. the manager came over and told us there are seats in the seating area. then we told him we were waiting. then he goes kay cool and leaves. it was pretty legit. on saturday i was at the school for 11 hours. that means i was at school for 79 hours and slept for 46 out of the 168 that are in a week. that leaves 43 hours of freedom. the shows went awesome. during the break between shows, me and nikki went to the gas station with our totally crazy costumes. nikki in her poodle skirt, and me in my gogo boots and clown make-up. the people at the gas station thought we were psycho, and every car that passed pointed and laughed at us. it was great(: then the second show rolled around, and i almost fell on stage but then i didnt. while we waited for curtain call i danced with dallin and we went crazy. then i came home and ate panda express. it was pretty much a win of a day. also, i said hi to every lakeridge boy that i didnt know and i freaked them all out. it was hilarious. and i did cartwheels. yeaahhh. pictures!

Me and Dallin walking to F.E.A.S.T

before getting extentions

aaannndd after!

our beautiful clown make up

.....thats a girls arm.

p.s.

and

a night with Andrew Lloyd Weber

okay. so first of all. my extentions are here!!!!!!!! yaaayyyy(: they look PERFECT, if i do say so myself. and guess what? my song didnt get cut! well, we had to shorten it, so my solo got cut and turned into a duet, but still, it was great! after school i went to my friend megan's house and we ate PIZZA. she has this cool pizza cooker that doesnt need an oven or anything. its freaking legit. then we headed over to the school for our CONCERT!!!! we got all of our gorgeous make up on, and we looked awesome. kenny rocked his first solo, and the choir sang "Love Changes Everything" way good. then, we had SO much energy on Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat. and THEN we did only you. and we were awesome. i'm so glad she let us keep it in the concert. after we sang we had a long time where we didnt have to do anything, but we couldnt leave because we had to stay for curtain call. sooooo we sang in the hallway, and did cartwheels, and toe touches, and said hi to all of the lakeridge kids. pretty sure they thought we were the wierdest things ever. then we had curtain call, and cast pictures. and i am wearing the most make up i ever have in my entire life. buuuuuut i did get a freaking awesome hug(: yeah. now i am helping nikki make her boyfriend a valentines present. whooooo. i just love valentines day. really? nope. but i will save that for monday. kay bye!

on why cutting is bad

there are lots of different kinds of cutting. cutting your arms (possibly for justin bieber http://www.justinbieberzone.com/wp-content/uploads/2010/12/justinbiebercuttingarm.jpg), cutting class (I've only done it once, but i had permission so i guess that doesnt count), cutting in line (i frequently do this, although i never get lunch...), or cutting the grass (never done it. my dad doesnt trust me with the lawn mower). but what i am talking about tonight is cutting things out of a program. dont get me wrong, sometimes cutting a song, or a scene from a performance is a good thing. it makes the program flow and connect better. but i personally think it is just flat out rude to cut symphonic voices ONE song that we sing alone, the night before the concert. we have put in sooo much freaking work on that song. it sounds awesome. there is a slideshow to go along with it, where we used our own pictures. we have gone to a million rehearsals to practice it. plus i have a SOLO in it. a solo! really? my choir teacher is just being rude. we have put in so much work for that song, and she is just going to cut it. she says that its too boring, and too slow for the concert. but acapella from orem jr gets to have a slower song than that, thats totally boring. oohhh who cares what the sophmores think, this concert is all about the seniors. they have more than half of the show, and all of the awesome songs, and all of the awesome costumes. cant we have ONE song that we actually sing by ourselves? its like she is insulting us. she apparently doesnt care about all the hard work we have done, as long as the concert is perfect. i mean seriously! its a complete insult! it was going to be such a good song too. we had a slide show of pictures, and all the lights were off, and people had candles. our song would make the concert that much better. but no. its "too slow". freak. maybe i can get her to change her mind. this is so retarded. kay bye.

That's why it's called a symphony

Okaaayyyy so song lyrics today! It's called A Million

A Million

You wish you never knew me
And you can see right through me
But walking away never stood a chance
I try to be strong and
To move love along
But I'm even too broken to slow dance

I've cried a million tears for you and
I have a million fears to see through
Why can't it be you?
Why can't I love you?
Well baby you're the blazing sun
And I'm the starlight shine
Why do you heal my heart
When I've broken yours a million times

We'd be like infinity
And I would write us symphonies
And you would flood the sky for me
Thats the way the lights should be
Darling I'm never alone
You're always calling me back home
But the lights are calling for eternity

I've cried a million tears for you and
I have a million fears to see through
Why can't it be you?
Why can't I love you?
Well baby you're the blazing sun
And I'm the starlight shine
Why do you heal my heart
When I've broken yours a million times

There are no words to describe this hurt
Cause sorry just isn't enough
For the tears in your eyes
For the fire that's died
For all the times that I cant fall in love

I've cried a million tears for you and
I have a million fears to see through
Why can't it be you?
Why can't I love you?
Well baby you're the blazing sun
And I'm the starlight shine
Why do you heal my heart
When I've broken yours a million times

counting down

 wooowww i have been gone for a long time. okay lets see. thursday was the most exhausting day ever. it all started at 1:00, or the start of B4. the choir girls went and changed into our costumes (most of the girls are 50's girls, but i am a gogo girl,) and i slipped into my gogo boots. p.s. i dont understand why people actually wore those, they hurt like heck. then we went over to the stage, and i danced my dance for 5 FREAKING HOURS!!!! from one to six i was dancing. oh myyy heeacckkk. we didnt get a break the whole time. but friday was awesome. it was retro night, and everyone dressed up for the basketball game. the jerseys were from the 80's, the cheerleader's had side ponytails and did retro moves, and then there was me, who didnt have a costume. yep. thats right. i didnt have time to go home and get one. our team won though! it was a great game(: there was also this spaghetti dinner thing that was awesome! i kept eating my friend jacob's lettuce. who knew it could be so good? ohh and p.s. if you are going to talk crap on me, right where i can see you, then try to avoid staring me down and then turning and whispering to your friends. its kinda obvious. aannnddd yeah. thats pretty much all i have to day today.

us at the game!

p.s. COUNTING DOWN.

9 days untill valentines day (i've never gotten anything for valentines, maybe it will change this year?)
74 days till my birthday
120 days untill summer and cross country
197 days untill i am a junior

whhoooo. i wish i was sixteen(:

kay bye

its too cold to be alive

happy groundhog day y'all! woah. country much? ahhh so anyways. today is groundhog day! im not so sure if he say his shadow or not, but i am hoping for spring to come soon! the whole shadow thing doesnt make sense to me. if he sees his shadow, shouldnt spring be on its way because the sun is out? and if he doesnt see his shadow, that would mean he didnt come out of his hole because it was snowing, or too cold, which means six more weeks of winter. doesnt that make more sense? ohh americans and our crazy holidays. speaking of being american, i decided that when i am old enough, i am moving to australia. seriously. its warm all the time, and there are beaches everywhere. the food isnt made with a billion and a half additives, so everyone is skinny. there are great running places. its easy to find a job. plus, you never hear about drama in australia. its just like "hi. im australia. i have hot people all around, and im just gunna sit here and soak up all this sun." i am just sooo sick of utah weather. the high for today was 19. really!? its too cold to do anything. maannn. i miss the summer. this is the time of the year that everyone hates. its cold. christmas is over. its three straight months of school. everyone wants spring break to be hear already. its the end of the winter, and everyone has been cooped up for like 4 months. seriously. if i had to be part of the year, i would NOT want to be january-february-march. anyway. i think i will go now. kay bye!

running and thinking about the future

soo today in history i had a wierd thought. in 100 years, students will be learning about our time. the same way that we have to memorize dates and people and events during the civil war, or how imperializm effected 3rd world countries. In 100 years or so they will be learning about how Facebook affected life today, or who invented the i-phone, or why we have soldiers in Iraq. its just such a wierd thought! like, everything that we are doing today will be compressed into a chapter or two in a 1000 page textbook. all of our social problems, our economy going bad, and the first black president, will only be things that kids will know to pass a test. i dunno. something to think about.
so last time i blogged about wanting to go running. and guess what? today i did!!!! me and nikki only ran a mile, but oohhh myy gosshh it felt AMAZING! it feels so great to be flying across the pavement again, to be pushing your lungs as far as they can go, and to feel the calories burning away. i have developed a deep love for running through cross country. during the first part of the summer, i hated cross country. every morning i would wake up at 7 and think, why the HECK am i doing this? then during practice, i would think, i am so ready for this to be over. after practice i would think, yes! a whole day untill i have to run again! but through the summer, i got used to running. now i love the feeling of miles turning below your feet, and the fresh air pumping through your lungs and re-energizing your body. mostly i just love going fast. i think i have gotten pretty good at it too. maybe. i dont know. but today, at the end of our mile, i sprinted, and it was like i was flying. ahh. i wish it was summer so i could run all the time. but my new goal is to run at least 3 times a week. me and nikki made a deal. she will teach me how to be a great cheerleader, and i will teach her how to be a great runner. good trade off right? i think so(: annyy way. im off to do my sit ups! i learned a new way to do them today. i might even put some push ups in there. maybe. kay bye!