not much to say today (that rhymed. unintentional)

soo i didnt do much today. the only thing that really happened was i got my go-go dress for my concert next week. i have a solo in it, and i am a go go dancer. the only downside? its ten bucks a person. of COURSE the one concert that i am doing stuff in, and only my mom is gunna come. uhhmm yeah. thats pretty much it. yeah... kay bye!

p.s. listen(:

ahhh this makes me miss cross country. i swear i am getting fat, since i havent excersized since october (i do sit ups and push ups every night, but that doesnt really count). i just wanna run! seriously. cross country and summer just need to come!

a thing or two on kissing

I am a VL. in case you dont know what that means, its virgin lips. meaning youve never kissed anyone. i made the goal a long time ago to not kiss anyone untill i am sixteen. and so far i have held that goal. i am super proud of myself for doing this, but its also kinda scary. when people like me, what if they only want me so they can be the one that took away my vl? what if the boy that i like, only likes me back because i havent kissed anyone. thats a really big factor in relationships. not to say that its a bad thing. when i am old enough, i want a boy that hasnt kissed many girls, maybe one or two. but all of the good boys want a girl who hasnt kissed anyone. still, being a vl makes me not trust that boys have true intentions. that they arent one of the "locker room boys" that will kiss me and then go gloat over it to thier buddies. i dunno. maybe thats why i havent kissed anyone yet. i dont want it to be something that is a boys goal. i want it to actually mean something. there is a talk that one of the church presidents made that says kisses are pretzels. i dont really understand that simile, but i did get that kisses are very precious. you shouldnt just hand them out randomly. we, as a cross country team, made it a goal to only kiss seven boys untill we are are in college. i think i can manage that. okay. so i think thats all that i have to say! kay bye!

p.s. listen!

all about boys

okay. so yesterday I drove home from the Lehi vs. MV game with Nikki's mom, Bunney. we talked about boys. ha no surprise there. we got talking about how personalities are what make boys cute. In seventh grade, i really liked this kid. he was a little chubby and had glasses. but he had the cutest personality ever. and thats what made me like him. long story short, no matter how physically unnatractive a boy is, if he has a great personality, it will make him way attractive. there is a guy at my school that all the girls love. but i have never really thought he was that cute. untill i talked to him. now i think he is way cute. its all personality. and it goes the other way too. there is this boy that i know and i used to think was the hottest thing alive. but then i found out that he cheated on his awesome girlfriend. now he is so ugly to me. ive been reading this book called Beauty Equation by Nigel Barker (yes the guy from americas next top model), and it talked about how having a bad inside will show through and make you ugly. i dunno. i think its pretty interesting. the next thing that me and Bunney talked about was perfect families. there is yet another boy that i know. pretty much, he is perfect. and too good for everyone. i wish i could see beyond the facade and see the real person he is, not just the straight A's and amazing style and perfect hair and by the book mormon ways. i mean really. perfection is not all its cracked up to be. my book says "There is no perfect size. we are all unique individuals and come in a variety of shapes and proportions. There's no shame in it. How boring would the world be if every woman were a 'perfect' size?" where was i going? oh right. dont be perfect boys! be yourself. thats what girls love (i dont know if any boys actually read this, but yeah. thats what you should do to get a girl. oh and dont cheat). while we are on the subject of boys. this was someone's status a while ago : A person can never forget two faces in his whole life, the one who held his hand in difficult situation and the other who left him alone in his difficult situation……… well. i think differently. for girls, i think there are two boys she will never forget. the boy who she wishes was in love with her, and the one she wishes she could love. the first one hurts the most. he is the one that you could be with forever. the one that you could so easily fall in love with. hes also the one that will never give you a chance, and thats why you will always remember. the second one is the one who you'll always feel bad about. they are perfect for you. you tell them everything. but for some reason, you just cant like them. ive had both of these. they pretty much suck. soo thats all i can think about for boys tonight. kay bye(:

p.s. i have decided to stop talking to people about my singleness. aparently its annoying when i am sad about it. so being single is all good for me now! kay now bye fur real!

double p.s. listen!!

Orem is Mountain View's town!

HI! wow i havent posted for a super long time! soo lets see. tuesday was a not-so-great day. it seems like i have been having a lot of those lately. long story short. my extentions did NOT dye. so now i have to wait for how ever long my mom decides to procrastinate to get them done. gah. i dont want my extentions to be one of those we-will-get-to-it-when-we-get-to-it things. ive had lots of those: the redecoration of my room (still wating), getting my permit (3 months till i am 16), pretty much everything i want to do. unless i really push for it. but i want my extentions NOW. i might sound spoiled. but alot of things are riding on them. ive waited for a whole week, and that might not sound like much, but it is when they are sitting there in my bathroom, taunting me everytime i go in there. every. time. i was really upset about them (like i said, they are pretty freaking important) so i didnt get much sleep. oh! but some good news for today. i talked to someone that i havent talked to in a long time. i missed them.
wednesday was E.P.I.C (every person is crazy). it was the orem vs. mv game! it was 0 - 11 in the first quarter, but we pulled up to two behind in the second. during halftime orchesis danced, and then the cheerleaders were going to, but thier music didnt come on. so they just awkwardly stood there. orem started yelling: this is awkward! and so julia yelled back at them: NO! awkward is 33-0!! (because we won them 33 to 0 at football). during the third quarter, it was back and forth. we scored, they scored, we scored, they scored. we dunked a three. then it was fourth quarter. ahhhh yeaahh. we pulled up by 9 and won!!! another victory for mv!!!!! of course!
today was ohkay. i aced my spanish test. we didnt do much in health. chemistry sucked. really bad. i finished all my homework in math. me and nikki went to the movie theater just to get food. we went to a church ball game. man i never knew how crazy church ball could get. girls were falling over, chipping teeth. the refs were yelling at the fans and vice versa. people were getting mad over numbers, and the game was almost canceled. i was good at keeping score though(: yaaaa thats pretty much it. bye!

I had the best day, with you, today(:

Sooo my title is deceiving. Those are lyrics of a song. But i really did have a good day today. First of al, I woke up at 5:30 to re dye my blue streak, then at 7 I had solo tryouts. And guess what?! I got the solo!!! Yaayy(: then, in b2, our english teacher was gone so we had a sub and we just talked the whole time. Then in b3, i had a test that i thought I was gunn a fail, and i only missed three questions and aced it! Then at lunch, me and nikki bought frazils and then got super hyper!! After school me and nikki went to the mall and I bought super awesome purple shoes and super good mascara, then got my extenstions(: I went to Texas roadhouse and ate a lot, and now I am watching pretty little liars. Life is great!

to extend or not to extend. that is the question

sooooo i have a problem. well kinda. i might get extentions. since the end of seventh grade i have wanted long hair, but my hair takes soooooo long to grow. like really. in 3 years its only grown like 7 inches. so nikki has these extentions that she isnt using. and she says i can use them. i would have to dye them blonde, but that will cost a lot less then buying extentions. but here is my hesitation. what if they look bad? what if everyone thinks i am fake? thats one thing that i really try to avoid. i hate girls who think they look good with a pound of make up on, and hair thats ratted and hairsprayed into impossible designs. i try my harded to not be those kind of girls. i only wear mascara, and i dont wear body shapers, or dye my hair. i want to be as real as possible. so getting extentions kinda breaks that. but still. i want them. i want to have long hair. it shoulnt matter as long as thats what i want right? but what if people think less of me for getting them? i dont think people with extentions are bad, but some people might. but its my hair, they shouldnt care about it. the sad thing? people will care. about my hair. its so superficial. but ya know, i think i am gunna do it. i need a change. hopefully i wont regret it! wow. that was an easy decision to make. alsoooo. i found this thing on facebook. imma do it here:

1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.

IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY

What's My Name? (haha thats what they should be asking you if you AREN'T okay)

HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?

My Heart Beats For Love (maybe a little... :/ )

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GIRL/GUY?

Clarity (SO true. honesty is the best quality in a boy)

HOW DO YOU FEEL?

Robot (dont know how this one works. robots are cold and im cold right now..?)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?

Yesterday (oh how true that is)

WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?

Breathe In, Breathe Out (definatly. breathing helps through everything!)

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?

I Do Not Hook Up (they know i dont.... at least i think they do)

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?

Come Home (i dont know how this one works...)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?

Don't Stop Believin' (fur shur. shes strong through everything)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?

Painting Flowers (i like to paint flowers...?)

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?

The Man Who Can't Be Moved (ha... i cant be a man..)

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?

Dynamite (hehe maybe(: tooo bad he likes someone else)

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?

Crawl (that would just be wierd)

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?

Misery (because they are so sad that i am gone!)

What IS YOUR PASSION IN LIFE?

Everyone (i surely hope not. that would make me a grade A slut)

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?

Near To You (sadly. this one is totally true. look up the lyrics)

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET? 

Just The Way You Are (this one works too. read earlier posts to see why)

WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?

Replay (replay what exactly?)

WHAT DOES YOUR LOVE THINK ABOUT YOU?

Dangerous (that just sounds scandelous)

WHAT WILL YOU TITLE THIS NOTE AS?

The Time (Dirty Bit) (greeeaaat song!)

Venting

Okay. So this post is to get all my anger out from the past few days. First of all, yesterday was the mountain view v.s timpanogas game. I was in the bruin crazies and my friends kept leaving me, and when I finally found a spot, it was right behind a boy that, well, I am not too fond of. So at halftime I booked it out of there and found someone else to stand by. Out team was tied, and then a timp player tripped a mv player. He was on the ground for about five minutes, and when got up, the refs called it on us!!! So timp got two free throws that won them the game because of that one stupid call. I mean, timp is rich, but I didn't think they payed the refs. It was so jank. Then today. Oh boy. I received some news that someone made out with another someone (I'm not using names - not because I care about their privacy - because I'd they found out o was blogging about them then it would start drama, which I don't like. They made out in front of the boy who really likes the girl that was making out. And she KNOWS he likes her. Who does she think she is? Does she really think she is so great that she can go around breaking hearts and no one will care because she is just so special? No. Heck no.she needs to get over herself. Seriously. Also. Boys need to stop being players. Girls aren't gunn a wait around for you forever, and acting like you like someone when you don't is just wrong. Sorry if this post isn't fun to read. I'm just so sick of self obsessed teenagers. Kay bye

I'M ALIVE!!!

wow. long time no see. ive been way busy for the past, what, three days? yesterday was open gym with nikki, and she brought her boyfriend damon along. we worked on the usual: back handsprings, running round offs, and toe touches. i am actually improving! maybe i will be good enough to try out by april! hopefully....
today was awesome. after school, nikki, tohi and I went to jump on it, to practice MORE cheer stuff. but then we had a surprise. damon..! yayyyyy.... it was great fun(: then we went to nikkis church ball game. calli (nikki's younger sister) and i cheered for them! it felt great and i cant wait to be a real cheerleader!
sooo thats pretty much all i have to say. sorry for being so flaky
ta ta for now!

i dont really know..

im grounded from the computer. shhhh(: so today was boring. seems like that pretty much describes my life ay? its wierd that school is tomorrow. it feels like saturday. i dont have much to say, except i am coming up with a list of good upcoming topics to post about. also. read: http://niknak-pattywak.blogspot.com/2011/01/you-are-beautiful.html

and listen :

it swears /: sorry!

close to my heart

sooo many things to discuss today. first of all. during Young Womens today we had an amazing lesson. it was about the Young Womens theme. here are the notes i wrote down:

January 16th

Faith = purity
Divine Nature = respect for yourself
Individual Worth = everyone is important
Knowledge = always grow
Choice and Accountability = your teen choices will shape the rest of your life
Good Works = we've all had a time when we needed help. so give others that help
Integrity = if you have this, you have every other value. stay true to yourself
Virtue = a gift from God

"if they knew they were Royalty, they would never thorw it away by making bad choices" <-- gives us self confidence, so you dont have to get it the wordly way

soo this is probably all very confusing. i will break it down for you.

faith will give you  purity. if you are ever feeling unclean or unworthy to be a part of this church, have faith in God that he can make you better. this sounds cliche but it is so so so true. i have personally been throught the repentance process. for those of you who dont know what that is, go talk to your ward friends. they will gladly tell you. you feel so much better when you know that your mistakes in the past wont ever be held against you again.

Divine Nature is especially close to my heart. lets just say that i havent always been happy with myself. there was even a point that i plead with God to send me someone i could fall in love with, that would make me feel good about myself again. i wanted a boy so badly. but then i realized. this is stupid. i need to learn how to stand on my own. divine nature is all about having respect for yourself, and i learned that after long months of being unhappy. its like in scott pilgrim vs. the world. in his first try he learns the power of love, and that gives him alot of power, but his sword eventually breaks and he dies. in his second try, he learns the power of self respect, and that gives him a sword that doesnt break. instead of dying, he saves the town and gets the girl. ha cliches. but really, self respect is the first step towards finding your soul mate, and i am so glad i found mine (self respect, not my soul mate-- yet!). i feel so sorry for all the girls out there that are still clinging to boys to make them feel good about themselves. if you are failing school and ditching class to see your boyfriend then there is obviously something wrong there. okay so my vent is over

individual worth goes hand in hand with divine nature. it says that everyone is important, even if you havent found your confidence yet. it teaches you to love yourself no matter what. that reminds me of a quote:

Want to know a secret?
You are beautiful.
Black, white, gay, straight, bisexual. Whether you are smart or quiet or impossibly in love with your best friend, someone out there cherishes your smile and gets butterflies when you walk into a room.
Someone out there can't stop thinking about you. You Are Beautiful. Don't ever believe differently.
(from sixbillionsecrets.com)

Knowledge is pretty self explainitory. except it doesnt talk about talents. i think talents are one of the most important things you could possibly have. you can take them anywhere. i wouldnt say that i have a ton of talents, but i would hate to lose my voice or my writing abilities. ever heard of the story in the bible about talents? basically, if you dont use your talents and make them grow, then you will lose them. i mean, imagine the world without them? no sports to get your frustrations out. no music to be there when no one else is. we wouldnt have this beautiful quote :

The Script taught me how to move on.
Bruno Mars taught me to do anything for that one person I love
Eminem taught me that life is hard but you can make it through
Travis taught me to be generous
Taylor Swift taught me not every guy is going to treat me right
John Mayer taught me to speak whats on my mind
Michael Jackson taught me to always love the people around me
Music taught me to live

Choice and Accountability is a hard one. no one wants to be in trouble. in the lesson we talked about how all you decisions in your teen years will define your life later on. thats so true. i have good grades (4.0 baby!) and i work  hard to do extra curricular activities. i have my future in mind and am preparing for it. but there are some girls that i know who dont care about thier futures. they live in the now. they dont care about grades, as long as their boyfriends are happy. those kinds of girls drive me crazy. but i guess its thier lives and not mine. so moving on

Good Works. this is also a close one to my heart. when i was going through my rough patch of self worth issues, i swear i had NO one there. i tried to talk to my best friend about it, but she just blew me off saying that i needed to get over it and stop being sad. so i did, and that was the end that she heard of it. i bottled it up inside and that was the wrong thing to do. but when i didnt have my so called sister by my side, i had someone else. ive mentioned him in some of my other posts, and he is my second most important person of 2010. he helped me understand that i was beautiful, and that pulled me out of my slump. i will always be grateful for him, even though we have grown apart. ive grown so much from that experience, and now i know how to be strong when things dont turn out like i wanted. in fact, i think that might be the reason i got through my october distaster with few scars. since i was so alone, now i try my best to always be there when others need me. thats my definition of good works. being there whenever someone needs you. because thats what i would want to have (and i do. nikki. duh!)

integrity. this is a small but suprisingly broad thing. to me it means honesty. that you could go to the grave with no regrets and no fears. i dont really know much about integrity, but i do know that all the best people and relationships have it.

virtue. this is my favorite value. virtue means keeping yourself clean, no matter what. it means waiting untill youre 16, and then waiting untill marriage. its my favorite because its so dang hard to do. i mean, have you seen guys? they are irresistable. but i guess they probably say that about girls. anyway. virtue is hard to accomplish. but it will definatly have the best reward.

okay so last topic. the quote that is up there is talking about how if all the people in the world knew that they were daughters and sons of heavenly father, and that we are royalty, then no one would make bad choices. no one would have self esteem issues because they would always know where they came from. it also says that we wouldnt have to gain confidence the worldy way, by always having a boyfriend, or always having the latest clothes, but by knowing God was on your side. and thats pretty much all i have to say! byyee(:

JuSt DaNcE

so today was pretty boring. i woke up. i took a shower. i went to mi ranchito and saw amanda littlefied (i LOVE that girl!). i went home. i went to maceys. i ate mushrooms and tortillini. buuuut then i played just dance one and two with my brothers! that game is way fun! and a great workout! you dont even notice that you are burning calories for 2 hours untill you are done! thats pretty much all that i have today. also. listen:

p.s. the most AMAZING quote ever!

Through my life I have had my confidence broken, my heart broken, relationships broken, my security broken, my dreams broken, even my spirit broken. These broken pieces come at a cost, sometimes too hard to bear, but for those who say God doesn't have a plan hasn't seen the stained glass window he made out of all those broken pieces

not just short but tiny post

soooooooo. im bored. this will be a short post. i went to the MV vs Westlake basketball game today. we pretty much kicked trash. our varsity team is way good. me and nikki stuck to our diet, even though they have really good food in thier vending machines. this isnt a get skinny kind of diet. we want to be healthy so we can be in prime condition for cheer try outs. no more junk food. so we went to target and got fruit and naked instead of eating pizza and nachos at the game. i feel so healthy. soo thats pretty much it. oh! here is my new blog full of my lyrics i write : Sweet Serendipity(:

a whole bunch of random

wow so long time no see? ha yesterday was crazy! kinda. maybe i was just too lazy to post and so thats my exuse. anywho. so yesterday i went to young womens and we had a super awesome lesson / activity on dating. we listened to a John Bytheway tape about dating. it had some really good information in it, and one of the principles it talked about was patience. there was this girl, who wasnt dating. she was old enough, but no one had asked her on a date. she felt like something was wrong with her because no one had asked her out yet. the response to her worries was that maybe she just wasnt ready for a relationship yet. this story describes like perfectly with my life right now. no one (and i repeat no one) has any intrest in me whatsoever. this should be a good thing right? im not sixteen yet, there will be no temptations to even break my VL. but still.  it makes me think "is there something wrong with ME?" i dont know. maybe its one of those phases that everyone goes through, like teen angst or something. but really, it sucks, and i wish someone could prove to me that not all boys are the same. but i guess they are for now. speaking of which, that reminds me of a quote :
Girls are like apples on a tree. All the sluts are on the bottom of the tree, and they get more attention because they're easier to get to. Then all the girls at the top think there might be something wrong with them, but, in reality, they're amazing. They just have to wait for the right guy- the one that's willing to climb all the way up." 
 anyways. after young womens me and nikki went to cheer open gym. since she is way super sick she just sat and watched me while i practiced toe touches and power / running round offs. i feel cool knowing all these cheerleading terms.
today was average. buuuutt i do have a 4.0!!!! whooooo! it was hard but i did it! after school i walked home, and chilled with my brothers. i also watched Easy A, which is a freaking hilarious movie. this is like the 30th time ive watched it. maybe i should move onto a new movie? okay. so here are some videos to watch

pretty much. these are hilarious. the end

the best day for a long time

wow what a great day! it started off by me actually knowing everything that was on my english grammer test, and then almost winning the game that followed. during B2 we had a great lesson about standing up for your religion from this story:
"Back when i was in highschool, there was this guy who was really good at baseball. he could pitch a 97 mile per hour ball and all the colleges wanted him. he was interested in this mormon girl, and so he talked to her cousin, who was my brother. the boy asked about the mormon religion, and a bunch of football players over heard. "the mormom religion is so crazy" they said "they believe that a 14 year old boy saw God" they were laughing now "they also believe that an angel came to that little boy and brought him gold plates that he translated from some language that no one knows" by now they were having a hard time breathing they were laughing so hard "but the best part? they believe that the angel came and brought the plates back into heaven!!"they were in hysterics. "is that true?"the pitcher said to my brother "yes" he said "its all true" the football players were making fun of him now "but you know whats really funny?"my brother said "the story when some old guy built a boat and put all the animals on it. or when some old guy was being chased by egyptians and parted a sea. or when some guy died for all of us. thats really funny" the football players were really mad now "dont say that dude! we believe that!" "and i believe that joseph smith translated the book of mormon and really did see god."   the football players never talked to my brother again, but the baseball players heart was touched. he went on to go to byu and become a great baseball player" - brother sua.
I got to skip B3 for the fashion show! it was great(: we got all ready during third period and performed at lunch! i wore a super short dress (not my choosing) and heels that were 5 inches tall (again, not my choosing). i walked with steph, and neither of us fell(:
after school i went to provo high school for the basketball games. the first two teams lost, but then varsity won!!(and thats all that really matters). we won by 5 in overtime. i hung out with the whole sophmore team during the game, and ohhh man those boys are a blast!! anyways... imma go to bed now. night(:

Nerves

Tomorrow. Lunch. In the commons. A fashion show! I'm in it. Aahhhh nervous. What if I mess up? What if i fall down? What if everyone thinks it's stupid? Aahhhh nervous. I have practiced my walk, and walking in heels, and ahhhh I am just nervous. Why am I so nervous? Ihave sang in front of the whole school, and not been nervous. But I am nervous for this. Hopefully I won't screw up! Ahhh bye(:

an outbursting of musical inspiration

whoooo so song lyrics!! i am working on my album(: so far i have 6 or 7 songs that i really like. once i am done i will post it on here!

*heaven isn't far away*

light up the sky

he’s looking into my eyes

to be where we thought we’d never be

all we have to do is believe

you talk about their pretty faces

and I’m sitting here while my heart races

and I dream about a thousand places

that I can be in your arms

where heaven isn’t far away

bring back the boy

I like writing your last name by mine

and seeing how you shine

and looking beautiful for you everyday

you talk about their pretty faces

and I’m sitting here while my heart races

and I dream about a thousand places

that I can be in your arms

where heaven isn’t far away

I close my eyes and ask to be strong

I wish that you knew I’ve been yours for so long

Maybe one day you will hear how I pray

And maybe one day you will want me to say

you talk about their pretty faces

and I’m sitting here while my heart races

and I dream about a thousand places

that I can be in your arms

where heaven isn’t far away

like it? i do(:



me through the years(:

3rd grade 

My mom was teaching during this year, so my dad took this. he dressed me too. i loved that outfit, and it got lost!

 4th Grade

those pants..... that hair...those shoes... that backpack... i'm glad no one dresses like that anymore



5th Grade 

My first "grown up" skirt. we ironed on the little cupcake thing. i was also late to school that day. it was traumatizing

 6th Grade

i should NOT have worn a skirt those years. it was the time in my life when my mom wouldnt let me shave so i had these discusting hairy legs. maybe thats why no boy liked me back then..?

 7th Grade

those bangs. oh boy. i was not a cute sevie

 8th Grade

that was one of my favorite shirts, and it also got lost. funny how that happens. i think 7th to 8th grade was the biggest change in my looks. i also matured alot, and actually started talking to boys(:

 9th Grade

i had braces. woohh. my hair was also in the awkward phase between short and long

10th Grade

my most recent picture. i love those white pants(:

also:

why i love being a girl

pre read: http://niknak-pattywak.blogspot.com/2011/01/it-is-time-for-meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.html


Friday was a ....great? day. after school, i went to a swim meet with samwell. he was gunna take me to the game but then things didnt really work out. i was gunna have my mom take me, but she left her camera on Jump On It so we had to drive aalll the way back and get it. luckily no one stole it. my mom thought someone would, but i KNEW no one would steal it. i mean, we live in happy valley utah. nothing gets stolen. but when we were walking out of jump on it, there was this group of really cute guys that were coming in, and i ran into the door. smooth. lets see. me and my mom went to subway, and then to the Timpview vs Mountain View game. we honestly had NO chance. timpview is such a good school that also recruits players. we lost all three games. there was alot of drama at the game, so i ended up having a sleepover with Nikki. since we were both sick, we went to Winco at 12:30 in the morning to get cough drops. i sat in the cart and got pushed around, and it felt like we were in a dream since no one was there.
today was great(: we slept untill eleven, and then went running. at least, we had the intention of running, but the track was too icy and our shoes had no grip on them. but we did walk for two miles and talk about lots of important stuff. we tried getting ready for 3 hours, but were really lazy, and ended up getting ready at 4. okay. so why i love being a girl. Girls Day / Night out! they are way amazing. we went to the mall and bought clothes! while nikki was paying i went to the bathroom and then came out and she was no where to be found! so i wandered around nordstroms untill she came back from the FOOD COURT, which is halfway across the mall! i woulda called her, but my phone wont turn on... crap... anywho. so when we were at the mall i ran into my super adorable friend nancy. our conversation:
nancy: heyy! i got your clothes and shoes for tuesday!
me: uhh what?
nancy: you know! for the fashion show!
me: ........ im so confused..
nancy: i texted you!!
me: my phone is broken!
nancy: oh! well you are gunna be in a fashion show during lunch on tuesday! its for my fashion class!
me: yeah i did not know that!

sooo yep. i just got signed up for a fashion show. awesome? im so nervous!!! of COURSE my phone has to die the one day when people actually text me. lets seeee. we went to five guys for dinner, and then saw harry potter 7. ahh that is a great movie and i want the next one to come out!! nikki got like 7 calls during the movie and answered them all! it was great fun(: we pretended to be idiot teenage girls for the people next to us.
nikki: what does courteous mean?
me: silent?
nikki: what does silent mean?
me: quiet. duuuuhh
nikki: oh! so like an 18 inch whisper?
me: no! a foot is too long!
they were enjoying our stupidity. well. i am off to bed! its too late to be alive... night(:

hello again

wwoooaahhh.  long time no see. and by long time, i do mean 2 days. me and nikki have been together thee whole time, i swear. yesterday we "sluffed" choir (being the good little mormon girls that we are, we got excused first), and while we were walking to nikki's some cops passed us. it was really scary, because we thought we were gunna get caught (even though technically we weren't doing anything wrong). her mom took us to subway and we got these amazing sandwiches :

recipe for the most delicious subway sandwich ever. plus low calorie
*Monterey Chedder Bread*
*Shredded Chedder Cheese*
*Lettuce and Tomato*
*Mayonniase*
it sounds gross. but its sooooo freaking good.

okay. so back to our day. yesterday. we went to get nikkis extentions tightened, and then i went home. but a few hours i came back, and we went to open gym at her cheer clinic. since i want to try out for cheer in the spring i have to work on back handsprings. im actually pretty good at them, if i do say so myself. i went to bed completely exhausted, and immediatly fell asleep. soo today was pretty good to. besides the fact that i cant go for 5 minutes without coughing - thanks for the cough nikki. we had a freaking blast in chemistry.
Dallin: "i will get a phone when 5g comes out. if it ever does"
Me: "eventually they will have like 74g"
Cline "or a mole G!!"
hhahaha ohhh nerd jokes. people who aren't in chemistry will NOT get this(: they took my phone and i had to get it back. me and dallin went to F.E.A.S.T (friends eating and sharing testimonies) and then math! oh man. math is such a fun class. who woulda thought that algebra 2 could be entertaining? but with casey to talk to, chad to try to force to talk, nate to listen, trevor to make me feel stupid, and mr. herring to yell at us all makes it a fun class. after school me and nikki stayed at the school for 6 HOURS. yeah. but the basketball games were great. sophmore, jv AND varsity won. and the varsity score was 80 - 30 ! we went to Jamba Juice, and got smoothies(: it makes me happy that i can actually eat these, since my new years resolution was to stop eating desserts. i've been doing pretty good so far. i havent eaten any desserts. nikki thinks that she can break me. but she won't. not even with doreos. oh! also! my best friend samwell (samuel) bought me a frog! yeah! hes keeping it at his house since im not allowed to have a pet, but still! a frog! thanks sam you are the best!

weellll. bye(:

oh wait. listen :

the evils and triumphs of basketball

oh my gosh. i cant even explain this. lets start at the beginning.

*the triumph*
soo basketball game today. it feels good to finally go to one again after christmas break. our sophmore team won, and our jv team won. i spent the first two games with nikki and damon (they are adorable) and damon kept repeating "nikki. your legs are soooooo soft". hes a creeper. um. nikki had to go cheer for varsity (shes an amazing cheerleader) so i chilled with damon and kyle. they are on the sophmore team, and eventually the rest of the team migrated to where they were sitting around me. they kept poking me, and were just the slightest bit awkward. but i made lots of new friends(: the game was way intense, but sadly we lost. darn. oh well we will be better next year.

*the evils*
okay. so this is going to be really vague
5. i do not care who you kissed. stop screaming it to the world.
4. annoying girls from the oppisite team, shaking it for everyone to see
3. the boys who actually like that
2. the kind of boy who doesnt appreciate what he has got. shes amazing. dont screw it up.
1. "hot"

i cant loose another one. please. im praying that you will be better than the one before. i can not go through this again. you are all i have. please.

*the random part of this post*

Nikki: i freaking love you. dont forget that. no boy can ever change how beautiful, amazing, and wonderful you are. he is the right one. he will come around. i promise. you are my best friend in the whole world and i hope nothing will ever change that

asdf!

.... these are hilarious

......they are also making me feel better

.... i need to stop being sad

......it was gay day at the mall today

.....yeah.

the opposite

ow. this hurts. i thought i was past feeling like this. i guess you are just another to add to my long list of people that don't want me.

Nuu yeer

So. I don't really know how to follow up on that last post. I poured a lot of my soul into it. I have read it mulitiple times, and it has made me miss the warm days. Hopefully summer will come soon. It's so weird to think that cross country was a full six months ago. I need to find a new sport. I am deliberating between track and softball. Track because I have always done it, and softball because I had an amazing dream about it. That sounds crazy, I know, but in the dream, softball made me feel so free and fast and mmm i don't know just good. I really want to do softball, but I am not good at it. Training, here I come. Soooo i don't really have anything to post about. My two grandmothers are here for my brothers 13th birthday. Did you know that teenagers are certifiably insane? Yeah. We are. It's different without my grandfathers here, but one died in November, and the other has alzhiemers. (alzhiemers is a deseise where your body basically goes backwards, to the point where you don't remember how to walk, or speak, or anything.) Its really sad seeing my grandpa like that.

Sorry to end on a sad note, but my mom is calling me. I am off to eat mushrooms(:

Bye!

A moment of silence for 2010

So, all in all, 2010 was a pretty rocking year. I am totally copying nikki and looking at highlights of the year:

January : I don't really know what to say about this month. It was a sad time for me. nothing really that special happened, at least not that I can remember. Me and jade hung out alot. Oh! Me and landen invented the crown. Whoever is more awesome at the time gets the crown. I have had it for at least 7 months. I am pretty much awesome?

February : this was a great month (: the s.a.p party was born! For those of you who dont know, a single awareness party is held when me and nikki are both single (although I am single all the time), or when there is a dance / party that we are too young to go to, or when we are just sad. We load up on junk food and watch sappy love movies. Solo ensamble was also this month. Me and my partner sang this : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5ob2NTWI1C0  I didn't get any criticism from the judge, who was a really tough judger. It made me feel pretty good(: my family also went to Disneyland on vacation!

March : hmmm march. I made the most amazing birthday card ever for my bestie landen (and let him have the crown for the day) Me and jade dressed up like nerds for young womens one day ( mustaches included) and we went to the store, and we saw some really hot guys and they looked at us like we were freaks. Jade ran away as fast as she could, but i had 5 grocery bags on each arm (no joke) and could only walk by and say : sup. Good times(: I was also in track during this month, and got a p.r. of 6:30 for the mile.

April : my brithday! Dahlin came and carried me out of my ceramics class, and nikki attacked me with silly string. Jade tried In N Out for the first time this month, and mmm it is good. I also went to Vegas with my cousins over spring break. it was cold. but we still tanned(:

May : the very first day of may was alpine days. It is the biggest track meet of the year. Our school lost (like usual) but I did meet one of the most important people I have known this year there. At the end of may, school was out! I got all fours on my end of the year testing. This began the most amazing summer ever.

June : this was a great month. I started running cross country. We practiced every weekday at 7:30 it was a great confidence booster. I was one of the fastest on the team. On June 12th, I went to summerfest for the first time in my life (summerfest is like a big carnival) and re-met the person I met at alpine days. After that, I spent pretty much the whole summer with him. I also went on trek. Those were the 4 most awful day of my life. The winds blew at 60 miles an hour. It was freezing. The tents collapsed. I am so glad I will never have to be a pioneer again

July : definatly the best month of the whole year. I spent everyday with Corbin. Me and jade rode our bikes all over town. Oh how i miss those easy going days. Everything was perfect. I learned how to trust others. I had the most amazing girls camp year. Everything was great.

August : the start of this month was amazing. My family took a trip to California just to relax at the beach. It was the most perfect thing we could've done. California healed my wounded heart, and I came back strong and ready for high school. And oh man, it isn't until you go to high school that you realize how much jr high sucked. I love mountain view and the closeness we all have here.

September : this month is kind of a blur. I wore my new school clothes. I made new friends. I did math homework, and read honors english books. I dyed my hair blue. I went to my first high school party (thrown by nikki) and had my first high school crush. I had lots of friends, and life was good.

October : life couldn't stay that good for long. My life fell apart in October. If I could erase that month from my memory i would. That was when I realized that my best friend in the whole world didn't need me anymore. I was extra, unneeded baggage to her. I lost her, and she took half of my friends along. I, in turn, got the one person that she really wanted. There were so many tears that month. The dance, the party, the amazing Orem vs MV game (MV won 33 - 0!) turned out aweful. I don't think I will ever be able to forget how painful that month was. And the worst part? She doesn't even care.

November : things calmed down a bit after that. We went our separate ways. Now it doesn't seem like we were ever friends. November obviously means thanksgiving (hate it), and I spent a lot of time with Nikki, Damon and Adam. We went bowling, and ice skating, and watched a lot of movies. They made me have the best thanksgiving break of my life(: also, this was the month of the giant "blizzard" that turned out to be nothing

December : but again, all good things come to an end. Adam went to her side ( I hate the idea of sides, but they just naturally fell into place). I was alone yet again. The drama flared up again, but this time she had a pack of girls out to get me. I tried as hard as I could not to retaliate, and they eventually left me alone (I have to give props to landen, who helped with the drama) I spent time with nikki and Damon. We went to the mall, and watched more movies. I had the best Christmas ever, full of surprises. I discovered that Casey and Sam are amazing friends. I ended the year with them.

Well, 2010 was a rollarcoaster. Some of the best moments of my life happened during that year, but also some of the worst. Hopefully 2011 will have more happiness. But ya know, who knows? Happy new year to everyone!